"As a man thinketh in his heart ...

so is he."  The woman that birthed me, hated me.  She hated me because she hated herself.  Sadly, she was never truthful with herself, never admitted why she secretly hated herself. Therefore she could never admit that she truly hated me, was my albatross and wanted nothing but my utter destruction.  I was her human sacrifice, not just her scapegoat.  I suspect she hated herself for her extremely low morals.  They were low, so low, I have decided to never , ever, again repeat them.

No matter, she would not be saved.  Martha did in fact blame GOD for her sorry, pathetic, homemade life.  Martha was determined to be unhappy.  She hated "having to marry" a blind man. She hated the fact the old blind man divorced her then she had to marry a short coal black ignorant perverted man.

 Did she hate the fact she had three illegitimate children by three different men in 1951!  That wasn't done.

What happened?  If you were so beautiful, so smart, why didn't you have a husband, a fine one with money?   With a name, with prominence?  Because you were WHORISH! No one wants a whore, male or female.  Whorishness is a deal breaker.  You are not smart enough, fine enough.  Once you have fouled yourself with another I totally lose interest.  I feel like someone wore my underwear, my shoes, left their "stain",  a long brown line.  I no longer want you.  I refuse to wash you.  You my friend are discarded .  Go some place else and be whorish.  Every whorish man that gives his pregnant wife an STD deserves to be discarded forever.

Perhaps I hate whores because I was forced to watch  and cloak for my extremely whorish mother.  She acted as if her "private parts" were on automatic, separate from her brain, separate from her true desires.  Worse, the men , women and "children" Mathy whored with were not worth it.

"Low morals", about the worse fate that can ever afflict a reprobate.  Martha I know you are ashamed.
"Low morals", pray that affliction away children.

If you have a spirit of jealousy, envy, hatred, anger, rage, go and pray.  Fast! Cleanse!

"Come ye out from among them."