If you consider yourself to be a "Christian", you pride yourself in following the "doctrine", the letter of the law. If you believe you must attend church faithfully, tithe, dress and speak in a pious manner that bespeaks of your great faith you are serving man. Sure, you holler LORD! LORD! and you get the spirit, leap vertically, straight up in the air praising GOD. Perhaps you are able to speak in tongue but have you asked yourself a few questions? Are you racist? Are you a bigot? Do you think claiming to love Christ makes you a "Christian"?
True Christians can not hate. Therefore I know I have a lot to work on. I hate my mother. She was a true sadist. Martha Jane Walters lived every day of her life to inflict pain covertly, clandestinely. Yes, she wanted credit for her evil, she just didn't want the consequences. Of course she didn't want to go to jail. But, Martha went further in her arrogance. "Don't you black muthafuckers eva' say shit to me fo'nuttin!" Do not bother her whining, complaining, crying because of her mischief. So she scalded you, burned, branded, raped, molested, robbed you … ; "Just get ova' it! Shut the fuck up! I don't want o hear it! I'm tired of you talking about it! I was just trying to raise you!"
I've thought about this aspect of my mother's personality for a very long time. Psychologically Martha was messed up! More than messed up. She was an ogre, a malignant narcissist, a mongrel, a monstrosity. She was a sneaky troll, truly a reprobate. Any one that has anything good to say about that woman is a damn liar!
I am tormented. How can someone so evil, so depraved, so disturbed get away with committing so much evil, destroying so many people for so long? Was it just fear? Was it Stockholm syndrome only?
Or was Martha that "thing" that had to be endured to the end?
Martha was the thorn in my flesh that had to be endured to the end. I endured! I will not lie, pretend to cry over a stanking slut that I'm so glad is dead I get up doing a Holy Ghost dance every morning. I pound Martha evil demonic head into the ground rejoicing, praising GOD for saving me.
This world can not make me lie like my brothers. One brother posted some bull on FB about how he wanted to dance with his mother again. We had the same mother! I know how she treated you! Why front for a dead demon?
My mother followed the malignant narcissistic mother's playbook to the letter. She had the Golden child that could do no wrong and she had the Scape goat, me, and she had a host of Flying monkeys.
She was a true witch using her witchcraft, hoodoo, voodoo to terrorize all who apposed her. I do thank GOD for directing me back to her lair, for solving the mystery of all the excruciating pain. Martha was a true sadist! She did derive carnal pleasure from inflicting excruciating pain, from secretly annihilating all the people she pretended to love.
Martha was an ordained minister for over thirty-five years. Mathy wasn't "studdin'" GOD. It was all a show, all a rouse to prove to all true GOD lovers and believers how foolish they are. Martha mocked GOD, gave (HIM) her ass to kiss.
That is the one thing my mother always said, her greatest brag. When ever Martha tricked some man out of his hard earned money, ran up his credit cards, just emasculated him or her, she would always say the exact same thing; "I gave dat nigger my ass to kiss." Then fall out laughing.
My Mathy Jane Experience has taught me GOD is Almighty, every word in that Book is true. GOD is not wrong . No, far too many people in the "church" are wrong, are not true, most are ravenous wolves. If I didn't know it before. If I didn't see it, could not discern them, this whole advent of DT has revealed them.
"From such stay away."
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