Yes, I vape!

There is a picture of me on FaceBook vaping! Clearly an old woman engaging in something only expected by our youth.  I vape, I am glad to vape and very grateful for the gift, the gift  giver and the time and space it has taken to get me to this point in my life.

I vape because my own mother was never more than a vile troll that pretended to love and worship GOD for eighty-seven yeas.  She was an ordained pastor, the mother of the church.  Nothing could  have ever  been further from the truth.

I vape because my mother and her horrid husband viciously raped me when I was a tiny little eight year old.   She was a nasty whore that never did more than hate me with a vengeance and plot against me and stalked me for sixty two years pretending to love me.  I have no family.  My raped destroyed brothers refuse to have anything to do with me due to the meddling of that horrid manipulative whore!   I am considered unhinged because I refuse to keep that horrendous  whore a secret.

Not only was my mother secretly a vicious "root worker", a closet lesbian, she murdered my grandfather, Jerome Walters, a very good man.  The only true Christian I can truthfully vouch for.

So, laugh at my pain if you feel so inclined.  Just keep living.  None of us have any control over the evil demons that will cross our path and try to slay us.  If a person can not empathize with my deep pain and shame and find it humorous well, just keep living.

I live in a world where no one cares what happened to me, to my brothers, to my family.  If you examine us you will find third degree burns, rapes, assaults, extremely low self esteem, unrelenting self sabotage, alcoholism and drug addiction as a result of Mathy's name calling and dysfunctional parenting.  I live in a world where I'm told to shut up, suck it up and to move on.  So, we have sex trafficking , children being sold into sex slavery by the millions daily.  Don't care!  It's not you, and no one in your family.  It doesn't matter if they are in your family, no one in your family will ever care either.

I'm up early again.  I am sixty-five years and one day.  "I have never seen the righteous forsaken nor (HIS) seed begging bread."

Every thing is still in Divine Order.  GOD is still having (HIS) way.  Be abundantly blessed as you live feeling better than every one,  every son and daughter deliberately struck down by their evil whorish mothers that suffer with extreme jealousy and extreme ignorance.

Evil still can't win.  Yes, it can slay.  It can make me vape, but it won't win.