Thou shalt not covet! Covet means to envy, to want, to lust after. Covetousness leads to envy, envy to jealousy, jealousy to hatred. If you are jealous and not rooted and grounded in the Holy Ghost you will plot against that person. Cain killed Able. Why? He was consumed with jealousy, envy and hatred. Obviously he became insanely jealous. So enraged with hatred that he killed his own brother.
Every one is so consumed with telling his fellow man how to live. We put laws on people that we ourselves don't keep. If you can keep the ten commandments you do well. Do you know them? Do you know what chapter of the Bible contains them? Just for fun, list them in your head right now.
I'll give you a shortened Southern version I found in an article by Nancy CraddocK:
#1 Just one GOD.
#2 Put nothing before GOD.
#3 Watch your mouth.
#4 Git yourself to Sunday meetin'.
#5 Honor yer Ma and Pa.
#6 No killin'.
#7 No foolin' around with 'nother feller's gal (or 'nother gal's feller).
#8 Don't take what ain't yorn.
#9 No tellin' tales or gossipin'.
#10 Don't be hankerin' for yer buddy's stuff.
I know one thing, if you obey the 10 commandments you'll be blessed. You will be in Covenant with GOD. You won't have to run to "root doctors" and fortune tellers. You won't have to read your horoscope every morning. You won't get mad when all that tithing didn't produce the windfall you expected. People will not hate to see you coming. You will not become a despicable demon.
You will walk proud and not be ashamed. You will wake up in Glory one morning. You sho' will.
P.S. You can find the 10 Commandments in the book of Exodus.
Friday, May 18, 2012
"Man does not do what is right...
man does what is convenient." My grandfather taught me that. His words have never left me in my 60 year journey on this planet. People look around to see what everyone else is doing. Most people base their decisions on what's "in", what is popular. Few people have the courage to go against the crowd. They fear ridicule. They don't want to be ostracized or left out. They don't want to be laughed at, so they go against their gut instincts. They refuse to listen to that still small voice trying to guide them, trying to lead them.
Jesus told us that many would be called, but few would be chosen. I'm chosen. I know I'm chosen and I'm proud of it. No, I don't have many friends and I have only two relatives in my corner (my daughter and my cousin Betty Jean) PTL!
They always called me "peculiar". They were right. I don't think I've ever been a people pleaser. I've never been a person to do something or go along with something just because it was convenient. You can do that when you are "unloved" and ostracized by your own "mother".
Today I thank GOD that she didn't love me, couldn't love, may never love me. "What GOD has for me is for me." Every life wasn't meant to be "normal". Every child wasn't called to this planet to be spoiled and coddled.
I do believe there is a blessing, a silver lining , in every "tragedy". It was through her that I met Jerome Walters. It was through him that I came to know the love of Jesus Christ.
I have a calling on my life. We are deliberately destroying our children by the millions and very few care. Very few people want to listen, few want to hear about their plight. "It is too vulgar." "It is too depressing, can't we talk about something else?" "I don't believe it!"
"Our rotten world goes right on spinning while we struggle with unexplainable fears." The masses keep trying to win by making sure they wear the "right" clothes, drive the "right" car, live in the "right" neighborhood. Too many of us are overly concerned with being the "right" color. Some people actually thank GOD that they were not born too dark or their hair is not too kinky. Their nose is not too broad or their lips are not too thick.
Most people spend their entire lives trying to be accepted, trying to please man, while pretending to please GOD. "I'm so glad that I found out in time!" Study your Bible for yourself. Don't you dare let some
"Jesus Pimps" mislead you, block your blessing and keep you from GOD's best. Pray for the power of discernment. Don't remain under the influence of a known demon because it is convenient. Stand up! Get up off of your knees begging for a blessing if you are afraid to listen , afraid to obey because it is inconvenient. Because you are afraid of how it would look to the world. Because you fear the repercussions that demon will surely put upon you.
Trust GOD with all your heart and soul. Pray and fast. Study His WORD. Admit when you are wrong. Shun evil and get in Covenant with GOD. Notice, I did not tell you to get in covenant with some one's ministry. Get in Covenant with GOD. Obey GOD's commandments. Stand up to all evil. If you see it, call it out. "If you enter in and they receive you not, shake the dust off your feet."
If you have an unction, if you thirst for some of that "healing water", stop where you are, right now! Get down on your knees and ask GOD to come into your life, to dwell in your heart. Ask Him to forgive you of your sins. "Go and sin no more!"
May the Dear LORD bless you in everything that you do. I love you. GOD needs you! "Let your conscience be your guide."
Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Jesus told us that many would be called, but few would be chosen. I'm chosen. I know I'm chosen and I'm proud of it. No, I don't have many friends and I have only two relatives in my corner (my daughter and my cousin Betty Jean) PTL!
They always called me "peculiar". They were right. I don't think I've ever been a people pleaser. I've never been a person to do something or go along with something just because it was convenient. You can do that when you are "unloved" and ostracized by your own "mother".
Today I thank GOD that she didn't love me, couldn't love, may never love me. "What GOD has for me is for me." Every life wasn't meant to be "normal". Every child wasn't called to this planet to be spoiled and coddled.
I do believe there is a blessing, a silver lining , in every "tragedy". It was through her that I met Jerome Walters. It was through him that I came to know the love of Jesus Christ.
I have a calling on my life. We are deliberately destroying our children by the millions and very few care. Very few people want to listen, few want to hear about their plight. "It is too vulgar." "It is too depressing, can't we talk about something else?" "I don't believe it!"
"Our rotten world goes right on spinning while we struggle with unexplainable fears." The masses keep trying to win by making sure they wear the "right" clothes, drive the "right" car, live in the "right" neighborhood. Too many of us are overly concerned with being the "right" color. Some people actually thank GOD that they were not born too dark or their hair is not too kinky. Their nose is not too broad or their lips are not too thick.
Most people spend their entire lives trying to be accepted, trying to please man, while pretending to please GOD. "I'm so glad that I found out in time!" Study your Bible for yourself. Don't you dare let some
"Jesus Pimps" mislead you, block your blessing and keep you from GOD's best. Pray for the power of discernment. Don't remain under the influence of a known demon because it is convenient. Stand up! Get up off of your knees begging for a blessing if you are afraid to listen , afraid to obey because it is inconvenient. Because you are afraid of how it would look to the world. Because you fear the repercussions that demon will surely put upon you.
Trust GOD with all your heart and soul. Pray and fast. Study His WORD. Admit when you are wrong. Shun evil and get in Covenant with GOD. Notice, I did not tell you to get in covenant with some one's ministry. Get in Covenant with GOD. Obey GOD's commandments. Stand up to all evil. If you see it, call it out. "If you enter in and they receive you not, shake the dust off your feet."
If you have an unction, if you thirst for some of that "healing water", stop where you are, right now! Get down on your knees and ask GOD to come into your life, to dwell in your heart. Ask Him to forgive you of your sins. "Go and sin no more!"
May the Dear LORD bless you in everything that you do. I love you. GOD needs you! "Let your conscience be your guide."
Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Thursday, May 17, 2012
"A waste of good looks"
she reasoned in her small mind. I was born brown, coco brown, I call it. Coco brown, blue black, it was all the same to her.Too dark! (Make sure she knows it. Tell her every day. Don't you dare let her think that she could ever possibly be prettier than me. For I am the fairest of them all. I am light bright and damn near white. I have good hair and big legs. I have pearlie white perfect teeth. I am charm-ing, men flock to me.)
There are some people that don't know boundaries. They truly can't recognize them. There are some women that see their daughters as their sexual rivals. Small infant, toddler, teenager, it doesn't matter. Vile unconscionable insane jealousy plagues them. Greedy and dissatisfied , they want every thing for themselves. You are not to have anything! (You better be glad that I didn't have the money to abort your luddle black ass. You bedder be glad I had you. You bedder be glad I went back and got you out dat 'ho house I left you in! What do you want bitch!? You 'bout one needy luddle mutha f*****! I swear I hate I eva'had you! I'm gon' fix you luddle a**. You ain't nevah gon' be s***! Embarrassing me! Ni I got three of you bastard younguns! I'm gon pretend lak I love you, gon' pretend lak I love duh LAWD. He duh one dat give me all dese younguns. He duh one made sho' I got pregnant eva' year!)
There was no reasoning with Martha. You could not appeal to her. She would nod her head and pretend to hear your advice. She was too sneaky to tell her parents what she really thought.
Was she really that ignorant? Or was she just plain evil? Who does she love? Can she love? Can she humble herself, bend her stiffneck? Will she come to repentance? Will she ever acknowledge that she took the wrong path? Will you pray for her? Do you have enough nerve, enough courage to speak to her about this "issue"? Will you confront her about the awful things she has done to you?
If she ends up on a bed of affliction, will you go to see her? Will you change her diapers? Make sure that she is clean and well cared for? Will you sit with her and read GOD's scriptures to her? Will you visit her grave when she's gone? Will you put flowers on it? Will you cherish her memory and thank GOD she was a part of your life for so long?
Will you forgive her for the wrong she's done and thank her for the things she managed to get right? Will you honor your father, grandfather, uncle, or cousin? Will you ever recognize the fact that he was no ordinary man? Will you acknowledge the fact that he paved the way for you, opened doors for you? Are you proud of his blood running warm in your veins? Will you let her lies, slander and distortions keep you from his blessings?
Do you live right? Are you a pathological liar as well? Do you suffer with insane jealousy like your matriarch? Do you hate that bitch of a sister, aunt, cousin that won't shut up? Do you think she brought shame to the family by her "tell all" book? Is she just crazy? Too "religious"? Too GOD fearing? Can you go too far trusting GOD? Is there a GOD? If there is a GOD, why did He let this happen? Is there a heaven? When you're dead, aren't you just done? Is Christianity something to appease the masses? Can you trust in a GOD that you can't see? If I pray will He hear me?
There are some people that don't know boundaries. They truly can't recognize them. There are some women that see their daughters as their sexual rivals. Small infant, toddler, teenager, it doesn't matter. Vile unconscionable insane jealousy plagues them. Greedy and dissatisfied , they want every thing for themselves. You are not to have anything! (You better be glad that I didn't have the money to abort your luddle black ass. You bedder be glad I had you. You bedder be glad I went back and got you out dat 'ho house I left you in! What do you want bitch!? You 'bout one needy luddle mutha f*****! I swear I hate I eva'had you! I'm gon' fix you luddle a**. You ain't nevah gon' be s***! Embarrassing me! Ni I got three of you bastard younguns! I'm gon pretend lak I love you, gon' pretend lak I love duh LAWD. He duh one dat give me all dese younguns. He duh one made sho' I got pregnant eva' year!)
There was no reasoning with Martha. You could not appeal to her. She would nod her head and pretend to hear your advice. She was too sneaky to tell her parents what she really thought.
Was she really that ignorant? Or was she just plain evil? Who does she love? Can she love? Can she humble herself, bend her stiffneck? Will she come to repentance? Will she ever acknowledge that she took the wrong path? Will you pray for her? Do you have enough nerve, enough courage to speak to her about this "issue"? Will you confront her about the awful things she has done to you?
If she ends up on a bed of affliction, will you go to see her? Will you change her diapers? Make sure that she is clean and well cared for? Will you sit with her and read GOD's scriptures to her? Will you visit her grave when she's gone? Will you put flowers on it? Will you cherish her memory and thank GOD she was a part of your life for so long?
Will you forgive her for the wrong she's done and thank her for the things she managed to get right? Will you honor your father, grandfather, uncle, or cousin? Will you ever recognize the fact that he was no ordinary man? Will you acknowledge the fact that he paved the way for you, opened doors for you? Are you proud of his blood running warm in your veins? Will you let her lies, slander and distortions keep you from his blessings?
Do you live right? Are you a pathological liar as well? Do you suffer with insane jealousy like your matriarch? Do you hate that bitch of a sister, aunt, cousin that won't shut up? Do you think she brought shame to the family by her "tell all" book? Is she just crazy? Too "religious"? Too GOD fearing? Can you go too far trusting GOD? Is there a GOD? If there is a GOD, why did He let this happen? Is there a heaven? When you're dead, aren't you just done? Is Christianity something to appease the masses? Can you trust in a GOD that you can't see? If I pray will He hear me?
It's in my eyes
I looked at my baby picture often. Something in my eyes always disturbed me. Why were they so plaintive? So sad, so forlorned? My grandmother saw it, declared that I had been here "befo' " What did she know and when did she know it? She warned my mother repeatedly about mistreating me. She told her not to do it. Made her swear on her death bed to "not mistreat dat baby."
The evil witch did it anyway. Some people view GOD's patience, His "inaction" to be proof that they are winning. There are some people that are just defiant, rebellious. They can't hear or see GOD in there lives. Some people are given up to a reprobate mind.
When GOD gives you up to a reprobate mind He is "threw wid'cha". You are beyond help. You are a disgrace, an abomination. "We walk by faith and not by sight." We say that totally clueless to it's true meaning. Most people go by what it looks like, by what is logical, by what makes sense.
She's pretty, she has money, she has status, she's brilliant. So you think. You can't see that hideous monster writhing inside her for the wigs and Fashion Fare makeup. Oh yea she sounds good, praising the "LAWD" 24/7. Showering you with token gifts and phony praise, you just beam with pride, glad to be in her presence. Glad to be included in her "posse".
I used to hear the old folks in Wade say; "I'm gon' slow walk you down." Grandma meant that she wasn't about to chase you to beat your behind, but she was going to get you. You were going to get exactly what you deserved one day.
That day is here family. You are not going to mistreat any of GOD's children and think that you are going to get away. You are not going to sit idly by and refuse to help GOD build His Kingdom here on earth. You know. You know what's right. GOD plants His truth in all our hearts. You can heed or you can ignore. You can secretly hate, be envious of someone else's gifts. You can secretly wish that they fail. GOD knows, and you will get your just reward.
I am going to publish my book. The world will know that a very evil woman came to this earth and tried every thing in her power to destroy GOD's anointed and lost. Lost big time. She did every sick demonic thing she could and was glad. Really thinks that she shut that righteous, always kindly admonishing daddy of hers up. Really believed she tarnished his image and successfully stole his mantle.
The world will know that there are some women ignorant enough, foolish enough, diabolical enough to think they can rob GOD. She will soon find out that GOD let her live to see and enjoy 86 years on this earth for His own reasons.
Who can know the mysteries of our all knowing, all loving GOD? I do know that GOD sent me to this planet to be an armor bearer, to be a Truth Teller. He told me not to fear. My grandfather told me to trust GOD with all my heart, with all my might.
No, little ones, my grandfather was not the monster she has portrayed and invented to justify her deeds. To ease her conscience. I am not the ungrateful whore that she invented in order to conceal her guilt.
One thing I know for sure, my grandfather taught me that ; "Time changes all things." I was born before 911, or child abuse hot lines. I was born before many people were aware of pedophilia. I was born when black skin was considered a curse and "luddle black bastard younguns" were considered a burden.
I was born in the bottom of a pit, unwanted and unloved by every one except my grandparents. My grandfather told me every day of his life that I was the jewel in his crown. That evil daughter that was born with everything in her favor was determined to prove him wrong.
For 86 years she could not care less for GOD and His Truth. Over confident in her "hoodoo" she made a complete mess of her life. But, the beautiful, wonderful loving GOD I serve says ; "Daughter it is not too late. You can still come into the Kingdom. Repent of your sins. Humble yourself, forgive yourself. Honor me and I will honor you."
Stay in His WORD children. Pray and fast. Seek His wisdom and guidance. Never let mercy and truth forsake you. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
My grandfather promised me that; "Jesus will fix it." And He will . I don't have to wait on your disbelief. I don't have to fear your "stank eye", your slanderous remarks and ridicule. There is nothing the devil can bring against me. I have been through the fire. I've been purged. But, most of all I've been washed in the blood of the lamb.
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the proud granddaughter of Jerome Walters, a brilliant Patriarch)
The evil witch did it anyway. Some people view GOD's patience, His "inaction" to be proof that they are winning. There are some people that are just defiant, rebellious. They can't hear or see GOD in there lives. Some people are given up to a reprobate mind.
When GOD gives you up to a reprobate mind He is "threw wid'cha". You are beyond help. You are a disgrace, an abomination. "We walk by faith and not by sight." We say that totally clueless to it's true meaning. Most people go by what it looks like, by what is logical, by what makes sense.
She's pretty, she has money, she has status, she's brilliant. So you think. You can't see that hideous monster writhing inside her for the wigs and Fashion Fare makeup. Oh yea she sounds good, praising the "LAWD" 24/7. Showering you with token gifts and phony praise, you just beam with pride, glad to be in her presence. Glad to be included in her "posse".
I used to hear the old folks in Wade say; "I'm gon' slow walk you down." Grandma meant that she wasn't about to chase you to beat your behind, but she was going to get you. You were going to get exactly what you deserved one day.
That day is here family. You are not going to mistreat any of GOD's children and think that you are going to get away. You are not going to sit idly by and refuse to help GOD build His Kingdom here on earth. You know. You know what's right. GOD plants His truth in all our hearts. You can heed or you can ignore. You can secretly hate, be envious of someone else's gifts. You can secretly wish that they fail. GOD knows, and you will get your just reward.
I am going to publish my book. The world will know that a very evil woman came to this earth and tried every thing in her power to destroy GOD's anointed and lost. Lost big time. She did every sick demonic thing she could and was glad. Really thinks that she shut that righteous, always kindly admonishing daddy of hers up. Really believed she tarnished his image and successfully stole his mantle.
The world will know that there are some women ignorant enough, foolish enough, diabolical enough to think they can rob GOD. She will soon find out that GOD let her live to see and enjoy 86 years on this earth for His own reasons.
Who can know the mysteries of our all knowing, all loving GOD? I do know that GOD sent me to this planet to be an armor bearer, to be a Truth Teller. He told me not to fear. My grandfather told me to trust GOD with all my heart, with all my might.
No, little ones, my grandfather was not the monster she has portrayed and invented to justify her deeds. To ease her conscience. I am not the ungrateful whore that she invented in order to conceal her guilt.
One thing I know for sure, my grandfather taught me that ; "Time changes all things." I was born before 911, or child abuse hot lines. I was born before many people were aware of pedophilia. I was born when black skin was considered a curse and "luddle black bastard younguns" were considered a burden.
I was born in the bottom of a pit, unwanted and unloved by every one except my grandparents. My grandfather told me every day of his life that I was the jewel in his crown. That evil daughter that was born with everything in her favor was determined to prove him wrong.
For 86 years she could not care less for GOD and His Truth. Over confident in her "hoodoo" she made a complete mess of her life. But, the beautiful, wonderful loving GOD I serve says ; "Daughter it is not too late. You can still come into the Kingdom. Repent of your sins. Humble yourself, forgive yourself. Honor me and I will honor you."
Stay in His WORD children. Pray and fast. Seek His wisdom and guidance. Never let mercy and truth forsake you. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
My grandfather promised me that; "Jesus will fix it." And He will . I don't have to wait on your disbelief. I don't have to fear your "stank eye", your slanderous remarks and ridicule. There is nothing the devil can bring against me. I have been through the fire. I've been purged. But, most of all I've been washed in the blood of the lamb.
May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the proud granddaughter of Jerome Walters, a brilliant Patriarch)
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
I know that my "mother's" diabolical
evil is hard to perceive, too gruesome to imagine. I would not believe it either had I not been her victim, her target for my entire life. Don't you ever forget that Jesus warned us. She was foretold of, she is here.
I must say that I am incredibly brokenhearted by the number of people that seem to not care. Some of you have lost loved ones to murder. You know personally how excruciatingly painful that lost is. Some of you have been molested and raped.
One of my own siblings told me to forget it; "...just let it go Gwen." I'm sorry, I can't. I know the life this creature planned for me. I am horrified. No one should touch, or violate little children, toddlers. No woman should be so promiscuous. What kind of woman invites her husband to violate her children?
Are you afraid of her because she is a "root worker"? If you are saved, if you know the LORD Jesus Christ, why do you fear her black magic?
One of my close relatives de-friended me. Was it to win favor with her? Why don't you know she hates all of you just as much as she hates me? Hate is what she is. Hate is what she does. The fact that she is a stealth demon does not make her less of a demon. Surely to GOD you don't believe her lie about what she has stored up for you in her will. If your read your Bible you would know that you are cursed for associating with her , for tolerating her.
Don't give me that garbage about "honor thy mother.." GOD is referring to real mothers, not demon possessed monstrosities. Are you waiting for her to die like one of my siblings told me he was? "The leaning tree is not always the first to fall"; her favorite admonition.
Are you still in disbelief? How could anyone so incredibly evil go unnoticed, unchecked for eighty-six years? I know GOD has His reasons for allowing her to breathe breath on this planet for so long.
I do feel very foolish, confiding in her over and over after so many treacherous betrayals. No, I have concluded, there is no good in her. How many of your marriages has she ruined? How many houses and cars have you lost due to her demonic influence? I don't know a lot, but I know one thing, a mother does not talk about her children to anyone. No mother gets on the phone and repeats the rot that she does.
No mother is elated to know that her child is suffering. That's not human. It certainly is not Christian. I always heard the term "cold blooded murderer". I really didn't know that it was possible. I didn't know a woman could blow a hole through her father's heart and never flinch, never bat an eye. I know she did it. I have infallible proof. "What is done in the past is in the past" may be the explanation you accept. That's ok for snuff dipping or shoplifting, not for MURDER!
You all have made me ashamed to be "black". A white girl gets spanked with a belt by her father and it goes viral. I have been blogging for years and I can't get a "share". I'm scorned, ridiculed, and ostracized. I am made the leper for her deeds, for "telling" and she is the demonic murdering pedophile.
Surely to GOD you are no longer fooled by her fake preaching. Do you need her fifty dollars that bad? Will you do anything for a set of tires? Will you ignore her evil just to get your rent paid? She told you that she mailed me a "turd" in a letter and you laughed with her? What had I done to deserve such treatment? I mortgaged my house for the third time and shared the money with her. Did she mail me her fecal matter because she thought my "husband" was too light for me? Because she thought he was too good looking, eyes too grey, lips too pink? Was the fact that he chose to marry me when I got pregnant an issue for her?
World, ladies and gentlemen, family and friends you are here by put on notice that I will tell my story no matter what. I will be a voice for all abused children. You don't have to help me and you don't have to care. You can pretend that I am a fool, that my grandfather was just another worthless poor n*****. You can dismiss what he did for you. You can forget that he feed and clothed you too often. That he loved and cared about you. That he taught you to be a decent man or woman. You can hate me for my Truth.
I will not shut up! The world will ask you one day; "What did you know and when did you know it?" The world will ask you how and why did you tolerate her, cloak her and adore her. This is not funny. This is not something that can be ignored and swept under the rug.
None of us are "normal". A brilliant medical doctor totally destroyed by this stealth monster. I know that you are in denial . I know that you would rather suffer her incessant despicable evil than confront her. Pray. Ask GOD for the courage you need. She emasculated you. She is an emasculating cunt. Do know that she is laughing, strutting around with your balls in her pocket. Take them back! She has no right to them.
She doesn't love you. She doesn't love herself. I may be a lot of things, but I am not a liar. And I will not be her bitch. She may consider herself to be some emasculating closet dike, I don't care. But GOD told us to never forsake mercy and truth.
She pretends that she can't control her jealousy. She pretends to be "mental". She is not too mental to call the law on you and get your house burned down and laugh. She is not too mental to turn you in to the IRS. She is not too mental to turn you in for a federal college loan that you never got. She is not too mental to make sure your daughter didn't get in the college of her choice.
I know one thing. I would not have her praying for my illness. Old doesn't make her good. Giving you her old funky crap that she no longer wants certainly doesn't make her generous. Calling herself a preacher doesn't make her saved. Driving an old Cadillac and living in a two story house doesn't make her rich.
Her fake preaching and praying certainly does not make her closer to GOD. Waiting on someone else to free you is exactly why blacks remained in slavery so long. Do know some blacks didn't wait on Abraham Lincoln and the Emancipation Proclamation.
I loved my granddaddy and he loved me. He would have never let her and that "thang" abuse me. As godly as he was I do believe if he had known he would have killed them both.
She is an idiot! Is she really trying to get into the kingdom without repentance? She is just stalling, up to her same old demonic games of torturing you, making a fool out of you, while she laughs. She convinced you that I want revenge. I want justice! I would like an apology. Yes she does owe me one. She owes me a lot more. This idiot punished us, blamed us for being born, blamed us for ruining her life. What an ignorant creep. You can claim her and you can continue to love her. I won't.
I trust GOD. I love the LORD and I live right. "Let your conscience be your guide." (Jerome Walters)
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the proud granddaughter of Jerome Walters, a great Patriarch)
I must say that I am incredibly brokenhearted by the number of people that seem to not care. Some of you have lost loved ones to murder. You know personally how excruciatingly painful that lost is. Some of you have been molested and raped.
One of my own siblings told me to forget it; "...just let it go Gwen." I'm sorry, I can't. I know the life this creature planned for me. I am horrified. No one should touch, or violate little children, toddlers. No woman should be so promiscuous. What kind of woman invites her husband to violate her children?
Are you afraid of her because she is a "root worker"? If you are saved, if you know the LORD Jesus Christ, why do you fear her black magic?
One of my close relatives de-friended me. Was it to win favor with her? Why don't you know she hates all of you just as much as she hates me? Hate is what she is. Hate is what she does. The fact that she is a stealth demon does not make her less of a demon. Surely to GOD you don't believe her lie about what she has stored up for you in her will. If your read your Bible you would know that you are cursed for associating with her , for tolerating her.
Don't give me that garbage about "honor thy mother.." GOD is referring to real mothers, not demon possessed monstrosities. Are you waiting for her to die like one of my siblings told me he was? "The leaning tree is not always the first to fall"; her favorite admonition.
Are you still in disbelief? How could anyone so incredibly evil go unnoticed, unchecked for eighty-six years? I know GOD has His reasons for allowing her to breathe breath on this planet for so long.
I do feel very foolish, confiding in her over and over after so many treacherous betrayals. No, I have concluded, there is no good in her. How many of your marriages has she ruined? How many houses and cars have you lost due to her demonic influence? I don't know a lot, but I know one thing, a mother does not talk about her children to anyone. No mother gets on the phone and repeats the rot that she does.
No mother is elated to know that her child is suffering. That's not human. It certainly is not Christian. I always heard the term "cold blooded murderer". I really didn't know that it was possible. I didn't know a woman could blow a hole through her father's heart and never flinch, never bat an eye. I know she did it. I have infallible proof. "What is done in the past is in the past" may be the explanation you accept. That's ok for snuff dipping or shoplifting, not for MURDER!
You all have made me ashamed to be "black". A white girl gets spanked with a belt by her father and it goes viral. I have been blogging for years and I can't get a "share". I'm scorned, ridiculed, and ostracized. I am made the leper for her deeds, for "telling" and she is the demonic murdering pedophile.
Surely to GOD you are no longer fooled by her fake preaching. Do you need her fifty dollars that bad? Will you do anything for a set of tires? Will you ignore her evil just to get your rent paid? She told you that she mailed me a "turd" in a letter and you laughed with her? What had I done to deserve such treatment? I mortgaged my house for the third time and shared the money with her. Did she mail me her fecal matter because she thought my "husband" was too light for me? Because she thought he was too good looking, eyes too grey, lips too pink? Was the fact that he chose to marry me when I got pregnant an issue for her?
World, ladies and gentlemen, family and friends you are here by put on notice that I will tell my story no matter what. I will be a voice for all abused children. You don't have to help me and you don't have to care. You can pretend that I am a fool, that my grandfather was just another worthless poor n*****. You can dismiss what he did for you. You can forget that he feed and clothed you too often. That he loved and cared about you. That he taught you to be a decent man or woman. You can hate me for my Truth.
I will not shut up! The world will ask you one day; "What did you know and when did you know it?" The world will ask you how and why did you tolerate her, cloak her and adore her. This is not funny. This is not something that can be ignored and swept under the rug.
None of us are "normal". A brilliant medical doctor totally destroyed by this stealth monster. I know that you are in denial . I know that you would rather suffer her incessant despicable evil than confront her. Pray. Ask GOD for the courage you need. She emasculated you. She is an emasculating cunt. Do know that she is laughing, strutting around with your balls in her pocket. Take them back! She has no right to them.
She doesn't love you. She doesn't love herself. I may be a lot of things, but I am not a liar. And I will not be her bitch. She may consider herself to be some emasculating closet dike, I don't care. But GOD told us to never forsake mercy and truth.
She pretends that she can't control her jealousy. She pretends to be "mental". She is not too mental to call the law on you and get your house burned down and laugh. She is not too mental to turn you in to the IRS. She is not too mental to turn you in for a federal college loan that you never got. She is not too mental to make sure your daughter didn't get in the college of her choice.
I know one thing. I would not have her praying for my illness. Old doesn't make her good. Giving you her old funky crap that she no longer wants certainly doesn't make her generous. Calling herself a preacher doesn't make her saved. Driving an old Cadillac and living in a two story house doesn't make her rich.
Her fake preaching and praying certainly does not make her closer to GOD. Waiting on someone else to free you is exactly why blacks remained in slavery so long. Do know some blacks didn't wait on Abraham Lincoln and the Emancipation Proclamation.
I loved my granddaddy and he loved me. He would have never let her and that "thang" abuse me. As godly as he was I do believe if he had known he would have killed them both.
She is an idiot! Is she really trying to get into the kingdom without repentance? She is just stalling, up to her same old demonic games of torturing you, making a fool out of you, while she laughs. She convinced you that I want revenge. I want justice! I would like an apology. Yes she does owe me one. She owes me a lot more. This idiot punished us, blamed us for being born, blamed us for ruining her life. What an ignorant creep. You can claim her and you can continue to love her. I won't.
I trust GOD. I love the LORD and I live right. "Let your conscience be your guide." (Jerome Walters)
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Peace engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the proud granddaughter of Jerome Walters, a great Patriarch)
"Birds of a feather ...
flock together." Those two buzzards used to haul us all over North and South Carolina hunting "root workers" and "two headed doctors". Wasted their time and money. They were seeking a way to do their dirt and not get caught. The two illiterate country bumpkins were trying to get power. Neither one of them had any trust in GOD. They went to church every Sunday, mind you.
She went to show off her furs, lizard skin shoes , fine outfits and big car. She had to let them n***** in Wade know that she finally landed a "huz-band". He went to show off his "high yalla" wife. The two stank buzzards truly deserved each other.
He's been dead, life was cut short. He never left his children anything but his scent. Now she is playing holier than thou. Got the unmitigated gal to call herself a "preacher". Never repented of one sin. Never apologized to anyone she hurt.
Some people believe in her, call on her to pray for them. Like I said; "Birds of a feather flock together."
She went to show off her furs, lizard skin shoes , fine outfits and big car. She had to let them n***** in Wade know that she finally landed a "huz-band". He went to show off his "high yalla" wife. The two stank buzzards truly deserved each other.
He's been dead, life was cut short. He never left his children anything but his scent. Now she is playing holier than thou. Got the unmitigated gal to call herself a "preacher". Never repented of one sin. Never apologized to anyone she hurt.
Some people believe in her, call on her to pray for them. Like I said; "Birds of a feather flock together."
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