I Will Not Be Silenced!

"...Go ye, and tell that fox, behold, I cast out devils, and do cures today and tomorrow, and the third day I shall be perfected." Luke 13:32

Friday, February 7, 2014

Dear LORD ...

Thank you!  There was no way for me to know the true evil that lurked behind those eyes.  Yes I felt it and there were a few times she declared it.  But oh how she vehemently denied it.  There were times she would beat us bloody for the slightest indiscretion then turn around and hug us, maybe kiss us, give us some money or buy us a favorite (cheap) toy.

Now no matter how she brutalized or violated us it was always our fault.  First of all we were just too dark to love.  Although she claimed that we had "good hair" it was never quite good enough.  The hair on the right side of my head was always too frizzy, had to put Royal Crown on it and tie it down with a silk scarf.

Yes I was much too black at "coco brown" for any man to ever want or to love.  (E.E.Smith High School got it wrong when they named me most attractive.  K**** S******* really deserved it because she was high yalla, had blonde hair and blue eyes.)  It was a good thing I had a bushel bail of long beautiful hair.  It was a good thing I had a shape that would make a "bulldog hug a hound."  It was a good thing  my mother married a "little shawt jet black n**** that she didn't love" just so we could attend the best schools in the world, "be round all dem white churin and have all dem white teachers."

I reflect back, experience some triggers.  Like the time I ended up punch drunk (damn near comatose) from all the blows you landed to my eight year old head.  You were screaming that I was too dumb to learn to tell  time.  I was legally blind and didn't know it.  I couldn't even see your little homemade clock. Every wrong answer was received with a hard slap across the face or a punch in the head.

You didn't care bout my ability to tell time.  You just wanted to beat something, to destroy, to maim .  You were still smashing that puppy between two bricks.  I know now why you used to love to tell us that story about Charity's Hill.  The woman that killed her husband and ate his brain, picked his brains out of his skull with a pair of scissors.

I am sorry you went wrong.  I am sorry you could never stop lying, plotting and scheming.  I am sorry you lost.  I am glad you hated me, made me your scapegoat instead of your golden child.  I am glad that you hurt and scarred me so bad I had to find the LORD.  I had to embrace the Holy Ghost.

Thank You! THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU!!! Praise the LORD!

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Rest assured ...

Everything works out for good for those that love the LORD.  I don't care how brilliant and elaborate a scheme is, it will fail.  GOD warns us in Proverbs repeatedly; if you dig a ditch for someone you better dig two.  If you don't understand that proverb you might want to stop reading right now.  The knowledge I am sharing may be above your pay grade.

I am still back tracking.  Still retracing my steps. We were standing at the foot of my mother's bed. (This was the room where it happened.)  She was going on and on about how granddaddy "sent for the gun" because he was fearful of burglers.

[Why did I fall for it? Had I ever known granddaddy to demand to have a pistol?  Had I ever known him to be fearful of anything?  This man was my hero.  How many snakes had I seen him kill with just the heel of his boot, with the blade of a hoe, a stick ?]

"Yo'grandaddy was so neat ... he put duh pistol up yeah After he shot himself in the HEART!" That was it.  My eyes bugged out of my head.   I locked eyes with my brother and at that exact precise moment  we both knew.  'She did it!'

So I need to know why I cowered down.  I know it was fear.  But, was there any hope there? Was I hoping that I was wrong?  Why was my brain screaming; "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!" Was cloaking for Mathy something I was just accustomed too? Did I do it automatically without thinking?

Well you already know GOD protected me from every one of her schemes, from all of her ignorant "hoodoo" and demonic conjure.  Every plot she planned backfired.  Strangely she never learned.  I have to admire her tenacity, her ravenous efforts to destroy us, to destroy me.


What if Mathy had put all that negative energy, hatred and insane jealousy into her dreams?  What if she spent more of her time trying to create a better world? Instead of fighting GOD, goodness and everything beautiful.

What is the truth?  What is the hilarious truth?  Mathy was an anti-intellectual.  She did not like to study.  Every book was boring to her, especially the Bible.  Yes she bought books.  Surrounded herself with thousands of them so she could look smart.

Poor Mathy was guilty of falsely believing she was the most brilliant woman that ever lived.  She knew no one was a better liar or actress.  NO, she never cared about a single solitary person on this earth.  Lived for 87 years as a selfish spoiled eight year old.  Nothing ever went her way.  Sure she pretended she was winning.  Celebrated every little trinket.  Perhaps she had some form of mental retardation.  Bragging about driving a brand new Sedan deville Cadillac.  Bragging about how the salesman complimented her because very few "negroes" bought brand new Cadillacs right off the showroom floor.  [While she was bragging about what she was driving did she ever mention that her children were at home eating grits and grease just so she could flex?]

Stay in His WORD children.  "GOD will never leave or forsake you."

(singing) Victory is mine! Victory is mine!

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

Copyright February 7, 2014  All rights reserved.



Thursday, February 6, 2014

Babies!

You don't need anyone's permission to live your life to the fullest on this earth.  GOD loves you! That is precisely the reason GOD brought you here.  Yes! you are part of His Divine Plan.

And let me tell you another thing while I'm "schooling" you.  Don't let any ignorant self-serving imp keep you from your dreams.  Know why they keep causing you endless pain.  Know why they made you their scape goat.  Find out who they are, look at their fruit and leave them in the hell they tried to create for you.

Do pray for them.  Love them if you can.  But don't you ever let anyone or anything ruin you.  Calling a woman "mother" doesn't make her motherly, kind, affectionate or anything.  Now if you ever run up on a poor fallen woman low and ignorant enough to resort to "witchcraft", conjure and the occult so that she will always appear to the world to be far more than what she believes she is ; RUN!!!   Get as far away from that woman, that enabling family as you can.

No, you don't have time to waste.  At the longest, the longest life is too short.  Stop letting your loved ones define you.  Always telling you what you want, what you are thinking, what you can do, what you can't do.

One more life lesson.  You can do anything you put your mind too.  If you don't have any real parents in evidence, remember GOD will pick you up.

Is your body racked with pain, full of dis-ease?   GOD can and will heal you.  Do you have a dream?  GOD will place the right people in your path.  It will all come to fruition in GOD's Time, in His Divine Order.  No one can keep you out.  No one can block your way.  Be abundantly and eternally blessed today.

I pray that all your enemies scatter and you be made whole.

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

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Wednesday, February 5, 2014

I WON THE LOTTERY!!!

Praise the LORD! I am one of His select! I have been chosen!  The Dear LORD looked down on this little speck of dust and out of His bowels of mercies poured His blessings and gifts on me.

No, my grandfather had no idea what those two buzzards intended for us.  How could he know?  I am sure he had never heard of any woman being so common and low down.  Nor did he know that any man could be so weak for a "yalla damn near white" woman.

I've thought about it and prayed about it.  It was never "sexual".  They weren't seeking pleasure or pain.  Those two buzzards were after power.  Two ignoramuses, evenly yoked in their scumminess.  Who knew?  Definitely a case of the blind leading the blinder , dumb and dumber , stupider and stupidest.

I was only four years old but every moment of that historic event was seared into my consciousness. I was a child and I could sense granddaddy's uneasiness .  There was Mathy Jane standing there grinning with her jet black little n**** soldier husband in tow.  He was quite a bit younger than she was and his little country Hawkinsville, Georgia brain was ripe for Mathy Jane's indoctrination , manipulation and poisoning.

Well it didn't work!  I know you feel stupid laying there rotting in the ground.  You mean to tell me that in 87 years on this planet you never caught on?  Beating and stabbing people for calling you an ignorant vicious savage! Hating every one that simply knew you were a lying whore.  That's what you were among other things.

The very last thing you told me, the very words that came out of your mouth were; "Don't piss on my grave when I'm dead!"  Why did you say that?  How could you utter a sentence so vulgar to your only daughter?  I know.  You were possessed by a demon.  A demon that you invited into your heart.  A demon that you nourished, hid and cloaked for.

Remember that "just and honest due" I used to tell you about? You got it.  GOD told me why you always bragged about your color and hair.  That's all you had.  You were as common as bat s***.  No decent man would have you.  Your reputation was so bad, so called decent people refused to be in the same room with you.  Instead of changing or a least compromising you  tried to play GOD.  In your dumb little small mind you thought you had all the answers.  Ran all over Virginia, North and South Carolina seeking "two headed doctors", practitioners of witchcraft.

You just knew you were winning. satan told you that your plan was fool proof, that you were invisible, totally undetectable, truly a stealth demon.  The devil didn't tell you that you were going to get old and slip up.  Jesus told me to look at your fruit and you cursed Him.  (LORD have mercy how can a minister of the Gospel curse Jesus?)

Now you know you could have repented, confessed your mountain of sins.  You chose not too.  Well eternity is for ever.  Never ending, "from everlasting to everlasting."

I want you to know that while our grandfather was packing our meager belongs in that cardboard suitcase he was praying for us.  And everyday of his life he prayed for us, guided us and gave us his sagely advice until February 10, 1979.  The day you took his life.  The day you took that old rusty .38 and pressed it to his heart.

YOU DID IT! YOU DID IT YOU STANKING S***!  Yes you did!  I got it now, you always played mentally ill and half cracked when it suited you.  No Mathy Jane the word for you is EVIL.  Human EVIL.  And you have the nerve to demand to rest in peace.  The same way you told me, told us; :Don't you f***** think back n*****!"  DONT YOU TELL A MUTHAF****** THANG DAT GO ON IN DIS HOUSE!"

I am bragging today children.  I am living proof that GOD will bring you out, make your enemy your foot stool.  Your cup will run over, you will give and not borrow, you will be the head and not the tail.  GOD will give you the power of discernment and you will walk on satan's little imps like grains of sand.  I AM A WINNER!!!

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

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Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Now you done gone ...

from being ignut, to down right stupid!          Don't come round yeah wid dat ignut nonsense.  Take dat "hoodoo" and put it whur duh sun don't shine!           ...         You ain't been drinking is you?           Did you fall and hit yo' head?         ...     Pleeze tell me you ain't dat dumb!?  Dat gullible?       Hmmmmmmmmmmm ...       Has you eva' read a book?           You thank duh good LAWD sent you to dis earf to stay ignut?!  .... If GAWD didn't want you to read the Bible ... what did He have it writ fah?  He had it writ out fah you dummy!   ...      Read if fah yo'sef then you will know fah yo'sef what it say!       ...       Well be lazy ... don't read it ... go 'head and rot in hell wid dem other illiterate no-reading all-sinning imps!       ...     Go 'head! I ain't got breath to waste on you. (Startled pause)        Bye! (Screened door slams shut)

Excerpt taken from the The JR Walters Chronicles.

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Monday, February 3, 2014

Of Human Bondage

"Get thee behind me satan!  ... Run you cur!  In the Holy Magnificent name of the LORD Jesus Christ you better bow down!!!"

GOD gave us Power over evil! Confront the devil and he will flee! Trust and believe GOD will bring you out! Your Joy Bell will ring!  You will feel so good you will think you are floating.  *" Walking on air, ain't touching ground nowhere!" There is only one simple thing you have to do; Trust GOD! Humble yourself, give Him your heart, let Him guide you.

Praise the LORD !  The Dear LORD has led me every step of the way on this fantastic journey!  GOD put the words in my mouth and the meditation in my heart.

Attending Wesley Chapel A.M.E. Zion church as a chid I must have heard the sermon of the Prodigal's  Son over a thousand times. I love the line;" the Prodigal's Son went out and fell among thieves."

I used to wonder about the people that were born among thieves.  What about them, how do they escape the clutches of evil?

First of all;  Shut up! And quit spreading ignorance!  Human Evil does exist and it is running rampant as we so called Christians watch in silence, content to shake our collective heads and leave all of our little innocent children rotting in bondage because the subject of  INCEST and Pedophila is too disgusting a topic to entertain.  Yet the main industrtries that are the main contributors to our moral down fall are celebrated . Our government cheeringly pays for the magic blue pill! WITH OUR TAX DOLLARS!  Because SEX is our greatest industry. We deliberately throw our children away for filthy lucre.  The agencies that we create that are supposed to protect children are all cruel hoaxes.  (At least in Georgia.) the Department of Family and Children's Services should be dismantled and the so called leaders arrested and IMPRISONED for child abuse.  I wish the same for all schools that deny children hot water, decent edible food and only 22 and one half minutes to gobble it down, the opportunity to really learn , to truly acquire a real education.

[Yes, ALL of our (public) schools have been deliberately "dumbed down". That is the real reason our industries have turned to "out sourcing" .]

Many of our movies encourage sexual debauchery and we laugh. Our small children are  mimicking very inappropriate "adult" behavior and we continue to laugh. Our children hate us while we remain blind and clueless.

I am the victim of thee vilest, most maniacal, demon possessed woman that ever lived! GOD told me to tell  you  that she was not alone.  Jesus told us that our enemies would be of our own household. Far too many of our churches are no more than a den of thieves. If you have some pimp preacher telling you that you are in danger of Hell fire for not tithing, go tell him Rachel Doster said that he is in danger of Hell fire for deliberately leading GOD's children astray.

"Pressing on the Upward Way!"

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

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*Joan Graham, NCA&T State Un, circa 1973

Saturday, February 1, 2014

Yes, children ...

there are mothers that have nothing but pure hatred for their  children. Some are kind enough to abort the innocent being that they don't want and know they will never love. Some will go through the pains of child birth and abandon the child, simply throw it away.

Those are not the mothers I want to call your attention to today.  You must know there are women on this earth that choose to hate, stalk and destroy that child secretly.  These women are stealth demons. They wrap themselves in religious garb, plaster "Jesus!Jesus!" on their lips, play act, lie and delight in deceiving.

Perhaps one of the major reasons you don't know about such women is they do such a thorough job of destroying and brain washing their victims.  These women are brilliant enough to employ the age old military strategy of "Divide and Conquer".  And then or course they just lie and make grandiose promises they have no intention of honoring.

Jesus warned us. He told us to stay away from such people. Cautioned us, told us to look at their fruit.  My brilliant mother conned us in our youth, told us Jesus meant your children.  That you could judge a person by the way their children turned out.  She also warned us to never read the book of Revelation.  Did she know that if I read it I would have recognized her?

When GOD said that "No weapon formed against His children would prosper."; it is the truth.  All Sooth Sayers , "Root Workers", Conjurers will have their part in that lake of fire.

I will end today's post with a quote from my grandmother; "You might get by but you won't get away."

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

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