to understand that there is nothing that can be understood to the point we can correct it. It is all in Divine Order. Our lives are predestined, pre-ordered, prearranged. The Holy Ghost is a Spirit that loves us, leads and guides us if we desire (It).
I pray that every one on this earth lives long enough to realize their hopes and dreams. That every person have a fair chance. While I am still actively crawling out of that pit my "mother" dug for me, I do thank her.
While she meant to ruin me, to grind me into dust on the sly, she made me strong. (Praise the LORD)
My "mother's" psychotic, sadistic, demon possessed persona forced me to become the "beautiful, brilliant, tender-hearted person" I think I am. I have issues. I have a hair trigger temper. I scare myself. GOD has always saved me from "myself". (Praise the LORD)
I fully acknowledge that I am human, I am weak. Not weak for sin. Not when it comes to obeying the Ten Commandments.
I have never understood why so many people struggle with fornication and adultery. But, there are a lot of things that do not interest me. Sports. If every sport on earth disappeared today, I would not care.
Books and music! Wait a minute! What good is life? I must have my books. I must read! I can not sit five minutes without reading something. We acquired that trait from my grandfather and he from his mother and grandmother.
"Readers are Leaders."
Salute to David Bowie. He lived. He loved. He made a difference. Rest In Peace.
One day, perhaps as early as one hundred years from today, people will look back shocked and chagrined by the foolishness of man. By the eagerness of the wayward to lead the innocent astray.
I do hope and pray that on this day more will read their Bibles and draw the parallels Almighty GOD put there for us to see. "My people perish for lack of knowledge."
If you think following some greedy "preacher" , some fellow human being is going to lead you to the Promised Land, you are mistaken.
"The blind can not lead the blind …lest they all fall in the ditch."
Loud clamorous nay sayers cursing me for revealing my "mother". Unlearned, woefully uneducated "Christians" that have never read the Bible entirely, one time in their whole lives, telling me to "Shut up!"
Telling me, what GOD told me!
No one on this earth has to believe me. "Many are called, few are chosen." Any one , still, too dumb, too blind, to see Martha Jane Walters was possessed by the many demons she collected over eighty-seven years, "has my sympathy". Eighty-seven years of being a blind imp, not so secretly serving satan.
Martha Jane Walters had a spirit that had to be endured. (Read and study 2 Thessalonians) How could we ever believe 2 Timothy without examples , fallen , "silly women" like "mother"?
There is no shame in "Salvation". True "Salvation", book of Acts "Salvation" will make you Peacock proud! When you have Christ in your heart you fear o man. Period. All imps are squashed! "How dare you!" "How dare you study just enough Bible to make you a fool? How dare you be more in evil you conjure from graves than from Almighty GOD? How dare you try to terrorize me into fear? Silence? Docile submission? I have the Spirit of Jesus Christ burning in my heart!
You do know you are forgiven, right?
(You are forgiven! No matter what you did, when you did it, why you did it, you are forgiven forever!)
Those are the words GOD spoke in my heart this morning. While my "mother" was quite the ogre, lying hypocrite, sadistic, viper whore, she could not prevent me from thinking, from observing, from knowing GOD. If she could have retarded me more than she did, she would have.
It appears to me in my "twenty-twenty" hindsight Martha went too far, far, over and beyond a mortal enemy's attempt to destroy. I observed what she did to my brothers, actually knew a great deal of what she was doing to me, yet, I held on. Clung to hope. Yes, I wasted my time. Oh well, I will never change my heart. My "mother" could have changed. She could have given up her evil nature. Pride. "Pride goeth before a fall."
Now, more than any time in my life I understand the patience of Jesus.
"Do not believe in things you don't understand." Do not follow blindly. Don't be intimidated by ignorant imps flinging primitive "goofer dust."
"Time changes all things." (Praise the LORD!) "Come ye out from among them." "Let the dead bury the dead." ; just some of the scripture swirling around in my head as I rejoice today!
Rejoice! PRAISE THE LORD!
Only GOD! Only Almighty GOD could take me from depressed victim to VICTORIOUS THRIVER in a millisecond! (Praise the LORD! The Fast and the Furious!)
P.S.
For all those that do not understand my repetitive praise, thank GOD you have never been where I have been! (Praise the LORD! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhh!)
Sitting here purely flabbergasted, realizing how evil and immoral my mother truly was. Still angry that she flat refused to repent and very successfully led so many into captivity.
The brother she forced to swear to a judge that she had been separated from her husband for over two years. The audacity, the nerve, the violation of his human dignity, never occurred to Martha. Martha was truly a woman void of all scruples, morals, integrity, common decency. Why am I still shocked that I witnessed her mock GOD, spew venom, rather than repent, apologize?
I get you Martha and you are wrong. The fact that your many victims still lack the "manhood", the intellectual capability and moral integrity, to rebuke you, does not make you right. You are still going to bust hell wide open, whether you admit it or not. While you foolishly bragged about your brilliant ability to ruin, you failed to recognize how you, crippled you.
Perhaps the slave master considered himself blessed, privileged, to have hundreds of slaves. The ruling class reaped the benefits of forced labor, exploitation. Did they sleep well? Consider the laws passed to prevent slave revolt, to guarantee safety. Talk about paranoid. The names Denmark Vesey, Gabriel Prosser, Nat Turner still enrage white supremacist.
The Word was that slaves were happy and docile but the laws said they were paranoid as hell.
Wrong doers are extremely violent, loud, physically, mentally and emotionally abusive. Their cruelty is not only repulsive it is debilitating. My own mother crippled me on purpose. (Dumb bitch)
There is still only One Race, The Human Race. GOD is righting every wrong, making every crooked way straight. You will get your just and honest due on this planet earth.
I do want the world to know how I was made to suffer. It is important for the world to learn every
Word in that Book is true. satan can not win. My mother knew that she could not win. She knew that she deliberately chose the losing side. It didn't matter to her. She was a hater.
There is a reason GOD commands us not to envy. Envy , coveting, wanting , desiring the hard earned gifts of others, leads to sick insane jealousy, like that of my mother. She was a mental midget. A carnal lying beast that could not be saved for her lying mouth, her very own lying nature.
"Obedience is better than sacrifice." Don't just know the Word, do the Word. Practice the Word. Why are you tithing and living in disobedience?
"Would a man rob GOD?" Is there a man or woman ignorant enough, delusional enough, to practice WITCHCRAFT? If you are a person inclined to play god, to manipulate in order to ensure you get your way, because you are carnal and common, you are a Mathy Jane. Your name will rot.
You will not get away. You will reap exactly what you sow.
I read an article yesterday cautioning against "compartmentalizing" the narcissist.
We always kept Martha's deep sick evil away from her good acting. In other words we were aware of the loud, horrid anger Martha could and would unleash upon you. There was really no reason or justification for it. "A lot of ****** shit!"; Martha's extreme overreaction to her extreme immature childish jealousy. Martha was an habitual plotter, a low slut addicted to sabotage.
For nearly sixty years I was perplexed. I was constantly confused. We all knew she could not be trusted but few of us knew how deeply disturbed she really was. The words "pervert", pedophile and incestuous never entered my mind. And criticizing, admonishing Mathy Jane was not worth it. Some people are "Hell bound". You just have to let them go. Do warn, but get out of their way. Do not drown in their ship! Do not lose your life trying to save theirs.
I know now, Martha knew all the time. Martha knew full well she was evil, deeply disturbed. So, selfish, narcissistic, she didn't care, could not care about another human being on this earth. That is a reprobate mind. That is what GOD promises to release you over to for disobedience, disrespect.
I know so many people "sowing seeds", tithing . Trying to stave off misfortune and bad luck. Blind sheep trying to buy a blessing from GOD. They say they want salvation , not enough to read and study GOD's Word for themselves, though.
Most people would rather sit up under a charismatic personality like my mother, being lied to and led astray, than read.
I think Stevie Wonder sums it up best; "When you believe in things you don't understand, then you suffer."
The very foolish evildoer thinks pretending to be too afraid, too ashamed, to repent is a feasible option. No, such thing. If you are a Christ lover you trust (Him). You obey (His) Word. You live righteously. You live and let live. You Free Fall.
No matter how intractable the evildoer pretends to be, s/he can't fool GOD. Claiming there is no GOD, no Supreme Power, does not exonerate you. We are all rocking in the same old boat. Perhaps some people benefit from privileges they did not earn, it doesn't matter, it all evens out in the end. My mother's extreme cruelty made me wise well beyond my years in some areas of my life, retarded me in others. It's cool. I am fine! Retired! Chilling. Living like a "white woman". Get up early, drink my coffee, walk my dogs, read, write, travel, paint, create In other words; "I don't hit a lick at a black snake." I am a lady of leisure. (Praise the LORD!) Attention all evildoers, all Mathy Jane supporters and "wanna -bees", YOU REAP EXACTLY WHAT YOU SOW! Worse, any thing you do to me, a Christ lover, will not proper YOU anything! " What you do unto the least one of these my children, you have done it unto ME!" Child MOLESTER! RAPIST! PIMP! ENSLAVER! It is the same as doing it unto Christ ! Be hard headed, ignorant, if you want to. You will be a REPROBATE! A PERVERT! Well, He gave you plenty of time to repent. You proved too brilliant to claim "idiot". We all have to work out our own soul salvation. We all have to do the best we can. It is "Free Will". As I reflect over my sixty-four year journey, I thank GOD. One thing for sure, GOD knows what I need. He keeps a ram in the bushes and most importantly He rights EVERY wrong! Praise the LORD!
My man Jesus! Where would I be without GOD on my side? Thank You JESUS! PRAISE THE LORD! Thank you for your tender mercies and abundant, overflowing blessings!
How could I know? How could another human being on this earth know? It took the apostle Paul and over sixty years of the most cunning, covert, torture to enlighten me. (Praise the LORD!)
LORD I get it. Martha Jane Walters allowed herself to become such a hideous, heartless, whore, she had to die. There was no stopping Martha from her madness. She was pompous, puffed up with pride. She was a viperous witch, a practitioner of voodoo and conjure. Arrogant! Disrespectful to GOD! Completely delusional! Common enough to preach unrepentant.
While poor, ignorant, country, unlearned Martha reviled, rejoiced , in her ability to slay others secretly, clapped her hands and squealed like a pig, a day of reckoning never occurred to her.
Retribution could not occur to her because she lacked understanding. Martha Jane Walters did sincerely believe she was made higher, was entitled, should be lauded and worshipped for the color of her skin and the texture of her hair. Character meant nothing to Martha, other than something to pretend she had. Martha did not want character. Scoffed at honestly, righteousness and all godly principles.
Martha claimed vehemently that it didn't affect her, that she didn't care what people said about her. She lied. She cared. Never enough to change, however. Just enough to fake, lie, manipulate, con, connive and punish.
I am laughing and crying hysterically, all at the same time. This horrid whore always mistreated me. Talked harshly, savagely, to me (and others), molested and raped me, kept me in harms way, enslaved and exploited me, put nothing but stumbling blocks in my way for sixty-two years!
I was supposed to remain clueless, gutless, emasculated, poor, broke and begging for my entire long life just for her trifling amusement! "Get thee behind me satan!" Surely to GOD no one on this earth has to remain as ignorant as our mother made us!
"Bow down satan!"
"Time changes all things." ; was one of my grandfather's favorite quotes. He was a great man and for whatever reason, a horrible woman came to this earth, infiltrated the Walters' family and brought it down. Your time is up evil one, take your hands off of all that want to be saved, all that want the love of the LORD Jesus Christ alive and burning in their hearts.
"Come by here LORD, somebody needs you." Jerome Walters
And no evildoer can stop the Hand of Almighty GOD no matter how intractable, ridiculous, insidious, ravenous, savage, primitive, cunning, conniving, covert, or hideous that volunteer monstrosity for satan is.
Careful study of GOD's Word reveals the fact He releases the evildoer over to a reprobate mind. Weak fallen individuals become delusional. Just as insane as Don Quixote attempting to slay windmills.
My poor mother lived eighty-seven years as a complete imbecile , a terrible-two, a spoiled brat monster that really did believe she was entitled , was smarter than GOD. Martha did truly believe in WITCHCRAFT. Loved it! Lived for it. Trusted in it more than GOD. If Martha hated anyone or anything more than she hated GOD, it was me, followed by her daddy and all the people that actually managed to live righteously.
If you did not fornicate to excess, lie habitually, fight, shoot, stab, steal like a bandit, Mathy Jane did not have anything kind or true to say about you or to you. Other than to corrupt you and persuade you to join her losing side, she had no interest in you.
My "mother" had not one ounce of maternal love in her body. Martha Jane Walters would beat, brutalize, main and scald her own babies with a quickness. GOD warned us these vipers would not have natural affection . Mine sure didn't. But she was cunning. Brilliant enough to play the role of a loving, nurturing mother, a role she felt was pushed upon her. "Motherhood" was something she actually hated, fully resented, but was always too cowardly to say so.
I know Martha wanted to kill me. She tried so many times. I do think she was conflicted, could not decide which was more satisfying and soothing to her; pretending to love me while vexing me through an excruciatingly painful slow death or just out and out MURDERING me , like she did her father.
I do think Mathy Jane settled on secret torture as her best form of revenge. Followed by playing dumb. Martha was always the hapless coon. Always confused, always pretending to be clueless, uninformed when it suit her.
Martha was very subtle in her evil, seizing every moment , every brief opportunity to corrupt and enslave. A savagely raped little girl grew into a worse monster than her rapist. This low whore for satan just so happened to give birth to five sons and one daughter.
No man could stop this monster. (So she thought) Once Martha successfully murdered her own father, there was no stopping her. So foul, so confused, so full of sheer hate, she took up preaching. Preached falsely. Was loved. Was admired. (So I thought)
Martha was cursed, brought curses on many, cursed her own children. My family, the immediate family of Jerome Walters is suffering under a generational curse. A curse brought on us by our fallen mother. Reverse the curse. "Come ye out from among them."
Rebuke satan! Acknowledge GOD! Surrender your life to Him. Do it now.
