Thank you Apostle Paul

Thank you Jesus!

How dare you satan!  Go sit your simple ass down some where.  Jesus told me to know my truth.  I listened to Jesus.  I always have.   I guess I had no choice.  Something inside me told me to steer clear of your "'roguish"," 'hoish", lying, lazy, scummy ass.

Could any one person be more messed up than you?  Could anyone be more hateful, angry, hostile, irritable, intractable,  conniving, manipulative, greedy, slimy, thick, dense and dumb?  Yes, dumb bitch you were dumb as "dookey"!  You never learned your left from your right and you always pronounced loin LION!  Pervert PREEE- VERT.

It was all due to pride Mathy.  You could never stop lying.  Yes, I do understand why you did not want to know or recognize the real you.  You will rot in the pit of hell for eternity for your decision to remain a cowardly sadistic malignant narcissist.  You were raped and used your abuse to justify becoming an abuser.

Woman you sure put flesh on the Scripture!  It is as if the Apostle Paul saw You  two thousand years before you came to be.   You were predicted!  You came to vex for your father Lucifer and you did not disappoint.   I do believe you did finally go too far and you made satan himself ashamed of you.

It was that WITCHCRAFT!   You had to feel like the lowest vermin on earth slithering  around in graveyards at midnight and PREACHING on Sunday.

"Rebellion  is as unto WITCHCRAFT."

No, you were never that fine.  Sure, you were attractive, perhaps pretty.  But no one is that fine.  No normal man could take the kind of torture you DISHED OUT DAILY!  Yes, you found a man just as perverted as you.  Luckily for me you grew tired of him, felt and labeled him  too black, too short and you had the nerve to call him dumb.  You were both stupid!  You were both ignorant primitive buzzards!

GOD gave you eighty-seven years to repent.  Not only did you say no,  you actually bragged; "I ain't repenting' fuh shiiiiiiiiit!"

GOD is no respecter of man Mathy. You can be sure your complexion,  white pigmentation,  was never a gift, a guaranteed privilege.  You  knew that.  satan dictated your deep stupidity, your mind numbing vacuousness .

All I know is, every Word in that Book is  true and I thank GOD that my "mother's" incredible ignorance and savage cruelty caused me to become a ravenous reader.

To GOD be the Glory!

Praise the LORD!

He picked me up!

"Ye shall know them by their fruit."  Please stop listening to the plaintive pleas of a narcissist!  They talk a good game.  "Talking", the art of verbal persuasion and fast talking is their gift.

"Fear no man."  "GOD has not given us a Spirit of fear."  GOD has given us Power! Holy Ghost Power over the enemy.  You are going to have enemies and they are going to be in your own families, your own kin.  Hurry and recognize the imps, shun them.  Call them out.  Make them flee.  You shouldn't be the one to shrink.  Do not give up your gifts, your dreams,  because they  become consumed with jealousy.

Truthfully, common decency, kindness doesn't cost Anything!  "A kind or soft answer turneth away wrath." 

 That was guilt, pure demonic sin that made Martha behave so abominably. There is no excuse for any pastor bragging that she is not repenting .  Something is very wrong.  TWO CORINTHIANS  Trump messed around and got caught bragging that he didn't need to apologize to GOD for anything either.

"Pride goeth before a fall."   Refuse to listen.  Refuse to heed GOD's Voice.  Put on a show.  Find out you don't run anything.  "GOD is not mocked!   What so ever a man or woman sows that also shall they reap." 

Cut the fool!  Disrespect GOD's Children, (His) elect, (His) anointed.  Go ahead.

Don't play with GOD.  You are going to need (Him).  You need (HIm)!  I need (him)!  If you can't feel (Him), if you can't feel the Holy Spirit, pray.  Fast and pray.  Pray!  Seek!  Obey! "Know your truth!"

Praise the LORD!

Like a small child ...

some of us demand our way.  "It is my way OR THE HIGHWAY!"  ; the brute screams.  do know the primitive brute is always a pusillanimous coward.  Do know that some men and women are so low, so immoral and corrupt they do target their own families, their own children.

Only the most defeated, destroyed, truly ruined families defend them, cloak for them in death.  Only the blindest, deafest, most corrupt coward would still defend Martha Jane.  She is finally gone.  Good riddance.

Have you ever had company, had some one to come visit and they over stayed their welcome?  They became annoying.  You missed your freedom.

I do not care who it is, how close someone is too you, there are some things you demand privacy for.  Is it me?  Am I the only one that craves and worships my alone time?  (Jesus did, forty days and forty nights. )   Am I selfish for enjoying my own company?

Was I made this way by my "mother"?  She sure influenced me.  I learned early that you could not trust adults, that most were nasty.  I learned early to steer clear of her perverted husband.  The one she claimed she had to marry.  The best she could do, the type she was reduced to because she scarified her life, her reputation to have us.  We were just worthless black ass bastards that she felt sorry for and could not bear to give us away so she had to marry this pervert and if he ever touched us she was sorry but his worthless black perverted as was the best she could do.  And besides he was a soldier in Uncle Sm's Army.  He got a fat check every month!  A fat check she fully intended to clip him for.  And if we were nice and quiet, if we kept our blabbering mouths shut, she might share soon of that booty with us. If there was enough to go around.

Martha had to drive a brand new Cadillac.  It could never be over two years old.  Martha had to wear the finest clothes.  She had to make the bitches envy.  (Always calling her a damn whore).  She was doing the best she could.  Niggers weren't shit!  Always getting you pregnant and leaving you with hollering black ass , worth less as,  damn black ass, nigger ass children!

Martha always assured us that giving us away would have been worse for us.  That she was really nice and she really loved us.  And the only reason she was ever mean to us was our fault.  We were the ones always doing wrong.  We were the needy ass parasites that she did not want and GAWD could ram ups back up Hiz ass!

Of course Martha could not say that out loud too often.  Some times her hatred would slip out but mostly she kept it thigh lip with her phony fawning of compliments and brags she did not mean.

We were always the source of Martha's miserable life.  She could have done so many things if it had not been for our sorry SIX ASSES! (SIX LAWD! SIX!!!)

(Yea, bitch the same way you loved your daddy the first day of every month.  The same way you loved soldiers payday on downtown Person Street or Hay Street.  Don't hate me 'cause yo'slutty ass is the whore!  Don't hate and try to sabotage me because I had sense enough to learn from your mistakes.  Bitch! You were a motivator!  If your common loud perverted confused ass would not motivate a person to study, to do better, to break the family curse,  nothing would.

You lucky bitch!  You lucky I didn't ever kill you or even want to kill you.   Yes, I was just as violent, well,  capable of the same level of violence.  Yes, I did carry a pistol.  Yes, I did go for bad.  I do thank GOD for preventing me from ever using it.

If you wanted to be "gay", homosexual, bi-sexual, you could have!   Personally I really don't think GOD cares about consenting adults.  You can't touch children.  Don't put your nasty hands on GOD's anointed.  You knew better.  Trying to destroy me instead of repenting was not the answer.  A tiny piss ant spitting into GOD's eye will get DEALT WITH!

While we as six fatherless children hung onto your every word and feared you like Hitler,  we were just that, children.  What did we know? All we knew , you taught us.  Fortunately in your triflingnes,  in your  total lack of maternal instinct,  you let Jerome Walter have us, care for us, nurture us,  in our formative years.  You could not run that perversion crap on me.   Very unlike you I listened to granddaddy, I heeded GOD's Word. 

So, you simple imp!  You preferred to play crazy and vex us with your secret witchcraft and sadistic acts for eighty-seven years! 

No one is that dumb!  Too many are that wicked, that fallen, that confused.   But no one is that dumb, that idiotic, that intractable.  That stubborn, that blind.  The gig is up Martha.  "You have been weighed in the balances and found wanting." 

 I remember granddaddy shutting an old sow away from her new piglets.  The dumb animal had taken to eating them.  Something went wrong.  Some times that happens in nature.

Of course granddaddy did not permit the little piglets to be devoured by their turned lunatic mother.  Granddaddy could not turn a blind eye on this sow because she was a prize,  or because he preferred her or because he didn't want his friends, his family , his neighbors, the world to know,  he owned such a hog.

I can not pretend I had a good mother because the world thinks I did.  I can not pretend that I did not finally figure Martha Jane Walters out because  it took me my entire life.  I am not ashamed!  I am very proud.  Mainly because when I look back over my long life I see JESUS!  I can clearly see and rejoice because I know The Holy Spirit made intercession in my life!)

 Praise the LORD!

"We will all understand it better by and by."

The wickedest ,  most cruel demon vexed us, teased, tortured us (the Walters family) on a daily basis for eighty-seven years.   Never honest, never forthright.  Never any sympathy, empathy or restraint.  Our pain delighted Martha.  Did she know? Yes!  Like a vampire that craves blood, Martha Jane Walters was a sadist that craved debilitating pain and utter destruction.

Why?  Too sorry and whorish to pursue her own dreams.  Martha demanded to sit around, rather wallow in her own filth like an old sow.   Fat and lazy, lying and disingenuous .  Jealous and treacherous.

Emotionally Martha was a two year old toddler.  Unfortunately for us , one of the most cunning toddlers that ever lived.  She was a sex addict! A NYMPHOMANIAC! A nymphomaniac that was deeply ashamed to be one.  Martha wanted, desired, craved , burned for the carnal pleasure.  It was not the label, the reputation that  Martha shunned.  It was the responsibility, the consequences.

No! Spoiled rotton, lying, despicable, greedy Martha only wanted her way.  She demanded to have life on her terms.  And no one dare criticize her.  No one better so much as give her the side eye.

Yes she was rendered delusional enough to think she preferred evil over GOD.  She did love the evildoer more than GOD.  She did put more trust in witchcraft than she did the Holy Spirit.

Martha would snatch the skin off of your face if you ever defied or identified her.  Martha's savage brutal behavior was so horrifying she wired our brains for fear.  The brutal stabbings and bludgeoning we were forced to witness as a toddlers  programmed us for fear.  If nothing else we learned to remain silent when Martha was at her worse.

That is how she could MURDER her own father.  Shoot him in the heart, in cold blood and never so much as blink.

Understanding over here!

GOD saved me!

Praise the LORD!

Attention Human Being!

You don't run nothing! You know nothing! All of your inventions, your great technology , is simply a tip of the iceberg, of what Man really could do if s/he were obedient to GOD.

Yes, Almighty GOD has a purpose and a plan for (His) Children.  (He) sees you evildoer and yes (He) is ashamed.  When a human being falls low enough to not only deliberately harm her family, but to enjoy, derive carnal sadistic pleasure from secret torture , we have 2 Thessalonians in the flesh.  GOD told us to endure to the end.  

According to the Apostle Paul certain events must take place before the LORD Jesus' return.  #1 -  "World wide rebellion against GOD lead by one who will be the incarnation of lawlessness and anarchy." (That evil one is being held in check right now by the Holy Spirit.) 

[Dear LORd, my "mother" was LAWLESS! INCEST! PEDOPHILIA! MURDER! Never ending plotting for satan. Thank you for rescuing me from Mathy's worse !  If she is a mere token of the evil to come, help us LORD! "Come Jesus!"]

Feeble man make sure you understand the Holy Spirit does not hinder  like you.  That Praise in your mouth is worthless.  Your expensive cologne , name brand clothes and silky weave can not conceal the real you.  You are an empty vessel.  You play church , you have no intentions of serving the Living LORD!  (GOD see you! Knows You!)

You are phony!  Just what on you or in you  is real or authentic? Artificial, rock hard breasts to match your rock hard cold heart.  Even those "bat wings" shading your shifty eyes can not conceal your festering hatred and jealousy.

Why can't you see that you will never win! YOU CAN NOT WIN!  Purge that evil jealous spirt if you want to win Christ.

You are greedy and you will never get enough. You are ravenous and you can not be satisfied.

Pray and fast.   It is true.  You must humble yourself.   You must repent of your sins.  If for what ever reason you are ever dumb enough, delusional enough,  to harvest  demonic WITCHCRAFT  from graves to torment and harm your own family , may Almighty GOD have mercy on your conquered, vanquished  soul.

Praise the LORD!

Divine Order coming into full fruition

It is what it is and it is what is obvious.  "Pride goeth before a fall".  It seems hardheaded, defiant , selfish, greedy, uncaring, lazy, lying promiscuous  Martha had messed up her life so badly by the time she was sixteen she had no way out but extreme hate.   Blaming and screaming like a lunatic banshee she tried to murder her own father.  Everything was his faulty.  she would not have gotten pregnant if he had not been selling "likker" Mathy  screamed.  "I didn't know whir babies cakes from!" She lied.

 There was no way she was ever going to face her truth, accept responsibility or culpability.  Not when brutally beating and secretly assaulting sufficed.

Martha was a sadist, and not so secret.  She was an ABOMINATION! A SHEER HORROR! SOMETHING SO TERRORIZING SHE COULD NOT BE FACED IN LIFE,  NOT IN HER FLESH!

You would rather unleash a thousand monsters from the depths of hell on your own ass.

Why didn't I get it, or  see it, why didn't I make the connection?  "I flushed five of you black muthafuckers down the toilet !"

Why didn't I recognize this as a cry for help?  Why didn't I see that my "mother" was a woman suffering in deep agony?  Because I was a child.  I thought as a child.  I was just trying to wash that mountain of dishes and trying my damnest to stay one step ahead of this lunatic bitch.

Poor Martha got stuck on that "light skin -good hair" lie and never let go.  My poor "mother" preached color privilege, believed in it, depended on it and look what it did to her long life.

"There is none so blind as he who refuses to see."

"They hired me as the secretary to the dean of students because I'm yalla!" my poor "mother" bragged often.  What the hell did her color have to do with her getting a job?  Did it really?  Or was Martha's self esteem that low?  Was racism that insidious?  Is it still that insidious?  White privilege hates and kills blacks that are "thuggish",  sag their pants, wear their hats backwards, wear hoodies, play loud music.  The same White privilege hates highly educated brilliant miscegenated noble brilliant GOD fearing men for having darker skin and a Muslim name.

America is out of balance, double minded.  Amerikkka is in trouble.  Just like my deliberately blind ignorant "mother" Amerikkka has finally gone too far.  "Evangelicals" are showing their ugly racist hands.  President Obama is not worthy to be President of this Great Nation the Birthers scream.  What about Cruz?  How do you justify Cruz out of that same mouth?  You demand deranged women like my "mother"  be forced to birth their unwanted babies then turn your two-faced lying hypocritical racist head once they are born.

Yes, racism is that insidious.  "Evangelicals" swearing their devout love to Our loving GOD while harboring sick ignorant hatred against their fellow man over skin pigmentation.  What a waste.

"Come ye out from among them."

Praise the LORD!

Have you ever wanted to ...

dig some one up out of the grave and beat the shit out of them, pulverize the shit out of what is left of their dead carcass?   If your response is no that is simply because you have never encountered a blithering idiot!  Your soul has never been vexed beyond human endurance deliberately.

I am going to keep researching this thing.  I must know.  I must find out what created my "mother ".  What made her so evil?  Was she born evil?  Was she in fact Jerome Walter's child?  (She did not look like him.  Just very light like him.)

Did Martha turn evil as a result of being raped three times?  (Why three times?)

Why did Martha try to gloss over her extreme promiscuity?  Why did she demand that we keep her proclivities a secret?   Why did she try to  pass off pure perversion as  "normal"?

What ever engulfed Martha engulfs our nation.  A nation that not only judges by skin color but hates by skin color .   (Sick hatred)  A country where misguided racist hide behind a badge to murder.   A "con" -try where you are hated and labeled a thug if you wear a hoodie and your skin is black.  A "con"try where you are hated if you are intelligent and well educated, if you are black.

The evildoer is double minded and confused.  The evildoer is a liar.

I am so glad GOD is removing blinders.

PTL!