Divine Order coming into full fruition

It is what it is and it is what is obvious.  "Pride goeth before a fall".  It seems hardheaded, defiant , selfish, greedy, uncaring, lazy, lying promiscuous  Martha had messed up her life so badly by the time she was sixteen she had no way out but extreme hate.   Blaming and screaming like a lunatic banshee she tried to murder her own father.  Everything was his faulty.  she would not have gotten pregnant if he had not been selling "likker" Mathy  screamed.  "I didn't know whir babies cakes from!" She lied.

 There was no way she was ever going to face her truth, accept responsibility or culpability.  Not when brutally beating and secretly assaulting sufficed.

Martha was a sadist, and not so secret.  She was an ABOMINATION! A SHEER HORROR! SOMETHING SO TERRORIZING SHE COULD NOT BE FACED IN LIFE,  NOT IN HER FLESH!

You would rather unleash a thousand monsters from the depths of hell on your own ass.

Why didn't I get it, or  see it, why didn't I make the connection?  "I flushed five of you black muthafuckers down the toilet !"

Why didn't I recognize this as a cry for help?  Why didn't I see that my "mother" was a woman suffering in deep agony?  Because I was a child.  I thought as a child.  I was just trying to wash that mountain of dishes and trying my damnest to stay one step ahead of this lunatic bitch.

Poor Martha got stuck on that "light skin -good hair" lie and never let go.  My poor "mother" preached color privilege, believed in it, depended on it and look what it did to her long life.

"There is none so blind as he who refuses to see."

"They hired me as the secretary to the dean of students because I'm yalla!" my poor "mother" bragged often.  What the hell did her color have to do with her getting a job?  Did it really?  Or was Martha's self esteem that low?  Was racism that insidious?  Is it still that insidious?  White privilege hates and kills blacks that are "thuggish",  sag their pants, wear their hats backwards, wear hoodies, play loud music.  The same White privilege hates highly educated brilliant miscegenated noble brilliant GOD fearing men for having darker skin and a Muslim name.

America is out of balance, double minded.  Amerikkka is in trouble.  Just like my deliberately blind ignorant "mother" Amerikkka has finally gone too far.  "Evangelicals" are showing their ugly racist hands.  President Obama is not worthy to be President of this Great Nation the Birthers scream.  What about Cruz?  How do you justify Cruz out of that same mouth?  You demand deranged women like my "mother"  be forced to birth their unwanted babies then turn your two-faced lying hypocritical racist head once they are born.

Yes, racism is that insidious.  "Evangelicals" swearing their devout love to Our loving GOD while harboring sick ignorant hatred against their fellow man over skin pigmentation.  What a waste.

"Come ye out from among them."

Praise the LORD!