I must admit that it is the mind numbing

stupidity of the masses that drew me to the study of History.  A few smart people, all cruel , have always wielded all the power because the masses operate on mob mentality, demonic ignorance and fear.

I am so glad my evil demonic "mother" is dead.   I am purely jubilant.  How any one that evil could live that long deliberately  torturing,  unhindered , is ridiculous!  At least one of us should have read our Bibles.  One of us should have known better.

It is fine.  I endured to the end.  If nothing else I learned to never be racist.  I learned all forms of racism is demonic.  While Martha bragged and drove a second hand Cadillac, lived in a "nice" house,  she was miserable.  She was Gay or a bi-sexual pioneer  and could not own it, could not celebrate because she had lied so long.

Martha it is obvious.  It is crystal clear.  You defined yourself as inferior, less than.  Your low self-esteem made you lie, made you hate, made you compare.  No, I still do not understand the promiscuity, the carnal lust.   Only because I don't have it.  I don't have it because you my "mother" made sure I was severely sexually abused very , very early in my life.  You, Martha Jane Walters, gutted me, your own daughter, your only daughter, like a fish.   What did you expect?

The more you hated, secretly plotted and abused me,  the more I flourished.  I thank you for hating me so much.  I am glad you sent me that letter you wiped your behind in.  You were a "preacher" then!  You can't mix "religion" and WITCHCRAFT!   You knew that.  You should have been one or the other.  Never both.  I told you that.  I told you that you would be cursed if you "mixed your hand".  You did it anyway.  You never listened.

"No weapon formed against me shall proper."  No evildoer can win!  Martha you may have kept score, but you were always losing.  Were you ever above suspicion?   No!  Were you feared?   Yes!  BECAUSE YOU TAUGHT US TO FEAR YOU! DUMB BITCH! YOU DELIBERATELY BEAT AND HELD US DOWN FROM OUR CRADLE TO YOUR DIRTY LITTLE GRAVE!

  We didn't have to to let you win.   Our brains were scrambled just like you bragged.  You were such a greedy low whore and robbed me of every possible source of joy.  You left me so destitute I had no choice but to turn to Jesus!  Praise the LORD! I found out (He) Is  REAL! THE HOLY SPIRIT IS REAL!!!

 We were conditioned  by you TO SERVE YOU !  To honor You!  Woman I would have to have the intelligence of an ameba protozoa to continue to love and honor you.   Your victims that still claim to love you are just as low, just as fake and lying.   Few people can escape the influence of their mother.  Only GOD can do that.

I am saved, spared the devastating effects of this world deliberated dumped on me by my own devious "mother" because she was wicked  and weak.  Because she feigned the Holy Spirit, pretended to be anointed.   Demanded to be feared!  Respected! Counted worthy!  I refuse!  "Bow down satan!"

PTL!