You say nothing, you do nothing...

maybe it's not in you.  Perhaps you really can't hear, you really can't see.  Maybe you really think you are winning when you are in fact losing.  Maybe I am crazy, a total nut case.

True, why should you care?  GOD's going to bless you regardless.  After all you call His Holy Name.  You wear gold "crosses" around your neck, go to church every Sunday or every chance you get.  You post those ready made beautiful posts claiming how you love the LORD.  You collect Bibles.  They are spread all over your house (unopened, unread).   You don't read it because you can't understand it.  All those "thees and thous, and shall nots", bore you to tears.  Plus you can't go along with GOD's strict program anyway.  "No sex before and outside of marriage!"  Get real.  "I know GOD said it, but He couldn't have meant it."

Plus, you don't have time to devote to making the world better.  You have just enough time to squeeze all the goody you can from the world you're stuck in.  Just do wrong, beg GOD to forgive and do wrong again.  Tell lies, most of all, lie to yourself.  Deceitful is the way to be.  Honesty will get you no where.  Just lie and frustrate your accusers.  They will finally give up and leave you alone.

Use people.  Charm them, read them, then make up a lie that you think they want to hear.  Look the part, but don't be apart of those "lames".  Straddle the fence, have a little "evil" up your sleeve and a little bit of Jesus.  Don't get too carried away with this "Righteousness" thing.

Don't put GOD first.  Put you first in all that you do.  Pretend that you put GOD first.  That's good enough.  What if you help her?  What if she out does you?  What if she ends up with more than you have?

Boy, you're smart.  You cast her out of the family.  She won't dare show up to any family reunions.  No one is going to call her, check on her or even remember her birthday.  Make her a non person, an "it".  You know that she is telling the truth.  But, you can't care about that right now.  After all you have your own life to live.  You are going to enjoy your life trouble free.  Nothing bad is ever going to happen to you.

Turn a blind eye to her wrong doing.  After all you are her favorite and she would never do anything to hurt you.  You've suppressed everything wrong she did to you.  You've forgiven her.  You will not live in the past.  You will let bygones be bygones.  You are going to honor your mother no matter what.

You laugh and feel good knowing that is the only commandment you are going to obey.

Forget that sister with her "talkin' self".  You know "mother" doesn't like that.  I can't disappoint "mother".  I never forget her birthday, or mother's day.  She loves me.  She never sent me a "turd" in the mail.  She never put a "root" on me.  All she does is compliment me and tell me how great I am.  After all I am her "black prince".  Every time she calls me that I feel so good.  I'm better than the rest of "dem n******".

She is going to help me.  She left her house to me.  She left her Cadillac to me.  Never mind the fact that she has a husband.  He's got one foot in the grave.  I've got to be loyal to her.  Granddaddy's dead.  He can't help me.  I ain't got no proof that she killed him.  So she hollered at him, screamed at him and mistreated him.  So she said ; "Yo' daddy was so neat.  See whur he put the gun back after he shot hizsef in the heart!"   So I know that she is a pathological liar and a big 'ho.  She still my mama.  I'm gonna honor her.  I can't let the world know my truth.  I can't let myself know what I know.

So, she ruined my whole life.  I  really could have been somebody without her interference.  Too late now.  I will accept the my lot in life.  I'll grin, pretend I don't care.  I'll take something for the pain.  I've got all kinds of pills.  I'll drink until my liver explodes.  I'll stay high.  That way I won't have to think about the bitch.  She won, I can't win.  I give up.  I know.  I'll just pretend I'm happy.  I'll grin and the world will never know.

Yea, I'll tell, just as soon as the bitch die.  How long can it be?  Cousin Wright lived to be 96!  Cousin Refus until 104!  S***!  I think I better find me some crack!