I do have scars, harrowing stories of survival, many examples of GOD's loving hand plucking me from disaster.
"Don't worry daughter, Jesus will fix it." My birth mother was a closet intractable demon, not nearly as brilliant as she claimed. My experience with Martha Jane Walters was far too long, far too sexually perverted, and most of all , far too totally unnecessary. Except that it was written, horrible "human beings" like my mother are clearly identified; "lovers of selves"(II Timothy)
"The blessing of the LORD is here." While ground into a fine powder, mere dust, by my own mother. MJW left no stone unturned in terms of destroying all eleven of the children GOD planted in her corrupt wound. Physical pain, beating, scalding, burning, branding, lacerating, was not enough to satisfy the disgusting lust for destruction for any and everything good and innocent placed in MJW's heart by the beast she truly loved and served.
She got us psychologically every day; "You're BLACK! You're black as coal!". Emotionally; "Why don't you just shut duh ****up! The mo' you cry the less you piss!" . Brutal physical beatings meted out daily for the slightest manufactured offenses. Finally financially, Martha stalked all of us. She turned us in to the IRS often. And just to make sure, MJW worked WITCHCRAFT on us for good measure.
Jesus told us these Ravenous wolves would get up in our churches and take the simple captive. It is done. Pimp preachers teach "tithing" without ever mentioning obedience. "Obedience is better than sacrifice."
GOD has not given us a spirit of fear but when you leave some churches every Sunday the minister reminds you not to talk, not to judge him. We are encouraged to "lockstep", cowtie and humble ourselves before some man, woman, Bishop, Potentate. Someone puffed up with pride wearing a title, flaunting their wealth. To count some human being higher than we count ourselves, higher than we count GOD. Most of all we are told to keep silent. That lying serpent up in the pulpit encourages you to take the worse forms of abuse. "Just pray. The LORD don't put no more on you than you can bear."
Dear LORD the "good christians" told me to take my story to my grave! I said; "She MURDERED MY GRANDFATHER! A good man! She shot him in the heart! It was cold bloodied MURDER!"
This world, my fellow victims, told me to get over it, to move on with my life. This world and my relatives told me that the reputation of one Martha Jane Walters was more important than my happiness, than their happiness. They agreed to sell their very souls for a mess of pottage. I understand. None of us had a father. She was the closest to "love" black bastards like ourselves could ever expect. We were conditioned, trauma bonded.
This world agreed that the entire Walters clan should go down inflames so that Martha Jane Walters could commit INCEST, Pedophilia, Sadistic brutality and assaults and MURDER. That she should be allowed to preach falsely, fleece liberally, lie pathologically, commit any sadistic fantasy that crossed her mind because she was "Yalla and had good hair." She was charming, charismatic, entertaining and seemed to be full of Joy.
This world told me that I was a black female and "That's how BLACK people act. They are all immoral *******! Very confused cursed people. People that do far more to hurt and ruin themselves. So much so, racism is actually a minuscule problem compared to the mayhem and destroyed lives left in the wake of self hatred."
Please define yourself! Please rid yourself of all the ignorance and fear pounded into you since birth. Children, there is only one race, the Human Race. Only one GOD. GOD is faithful. Every Word in that Book is true.
"Weeping may endure for a night but Joy comes in the morning!"
PTL!
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