"The straw that broke the camel's back"

It is true, a mere grain of sand or the weight of a feather can do it, finally tip the scales. For nearly sixty years I took, accepted, endured the most excruciating pain and humiliation possible meted out by my own mother.

Life is hard. By definition life is hard, it is a struggle. You must struggle through the birth canal, struggle to catch that first breath of air. If you are like me you were born into trouble. I do pity the children born to ignorant savage whores, over sexed, pathological lying, mentally ill perverts hidden from view by their loving,  trying to look "normal" loving families.

My poor mother was "over sexed". She was a sexual beast without boundaries. Age, gender, kinship, time, place or numbers meant nothing to Martha. Martha only had one problem, "talkin' *******!" If people would just keep their mouths shut, everything would be find.

We were conditioned. I never knew of a time when Martha wasn't savagely cursing, fighting and lying about something  unconscionable she had done. I know now she was a reprobate. A complete , utter, vulgar, common reprobate.  That was why she hated and plotted so. So repulsed by her own out of control life she demanded to ruin every life she touched in order to prove to herself she was smarter, better, more entitled.

No. You were wrong Martha. You were a human maggot. No, few people on this earth are worse than you. No, you had zero morals. You were determined to ruin me, trade my life for yours. You were determined to take down your entire world and did.  You were despicable, loved being despicable while selling that "woman of virtue" hogwash you wanted no part of.

That wasn't courage Martha. You were a savage brute! You knew it, preferred it, enjoyed it , that is why you hid it so well. No matter what , you knew or I knew. GOD knew! PRAISE THE LORD!

Sure you MURDERED your own daddy.  Never did time. You know you did it! I know you did it! And GOD knows you did it!  What did you ever "pull time" for?  If we added up all the prison sentences you should have received for just your high crimes of the sadistic nature , it would take several long lifetimes for you to just begin "your just and honest due."

Martha if you had just spent your time on you , instead of lusting after  every nice looking man. I take that back. A lot of them weren't even nice looking.  If you had not spent all your time lusting after men and the gifts of others , you would have been quite successful. You see you never had to hate anyone for their gifts and talents.

Yes you did Martha. You deliberately neglected your own gifts and talents trying to destroy others by exploiting GOD's Name, His Gospel, His Glory.  Don't hate me. It can't be done. You are not GOD, a god or even godlike.


Make sure you get this;"He maketh not ashamed."  Any thing you do for GOD, for Kingdom building,  will last. Any and all evil you do will haunt you. You will end up like my mother , preferring death to repentance.

satan is going to make you straight repugnant! He is going to make you a liar, then his bitch. Pray! Shun evil!

"If you don't want people to know you did it   ...   don't do it."

PTL!