What shall wash away my fears?

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Nothing but the blood of Jesus.

Got up early this morning thanking GOD for His tender mercies, for raining down His blessings on me , my family, my loved ones.  I do pray many more will come into the knowledge of the LORD Jesus Christ.

You do have to seek Him, have a burning desire to know Him intimately.  It is a fire shut up in your bones.  You do have to study His Word.  You do have to pray for the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.

I once knew a man that was college educated (supposedly).  This poor man placed his clean, never read Bible in the back window of his car.  He rode that Bible every where, the pages blowing, the sun baking the pages.  I did tell him that he needed to read it.  He refused, claimed he could not understand it.  Obviously he could not if he thought GOD was going to bless his lascivious life style for simply pretending to be a "christian".

Yes,  he was a member of a large church and did serve as an usher.  Did he tithe? I doubt it.  He admitted that he joined this church in order to recruit clients for his so called business.  This poor man was lost and I imagine he still is. He is a "lockstepper", a blind sheep, a follower of the wicked of this earth.

This poor man actually believed the lies of this world, the light color of his skin and grey eyes was enough, that he had it all and all he every had to do was lie and exploit , flash a winning smile and lie, manipulate, con, cry crocodile tears.  Just lie! Yes,  he was also a pathological liar and the worse mistake of his life was believing his own lies.

My poor mother fell for the same lie and satan took her for a 87 year long  ride.  I know now she was miserable.  I now understand why she treated her loved ones so disgustingly horrible.  She was ashamed.  She was raped three times as a young girl.  I imagine she became the object of ridicule immediately.  I am sure she was shunned.  I am positive this was the beginning of her incredible low self esteem and extreme jealousy.  She was a pathological liar.  My poor mother was traumatized.

That trauma turned to anger, hatred, extreme vulgarity , extreme promiscuity.  Ashamed and full of hatred she turned to WITCHCRAFT.  That  witchcraft ushered her  into a life unspeakable.  What a waste.

I thank GOD I was her target , her scapegoat , because through it all I gained Christ.  No, I am not perfect.  I am human.  Yes, I cry and break down daily.  The cruelty of my delusional demon possessed mother is beyond  my scope of understanding  but I do know my Redeemer lives.  I am sitting here in a very fine apartment.   Yes,  I did lose my house to foreclosure .  But I am very glad to be out of that situation.  I have the pictures,  the evidence,  to prove a very evil demonic spirit was planted in my house and ran me out.  That was Martha's signature move.  If you knew her and she was jealous of you,  she would target your home, your health, your wealth.

"No weapon formed against me shall prosper."  No one can stop a closet evil doer from doing their worse.  While they may laugh and delight in your pain,  do know GOD will take care of them and reward you for your faithfulness.

I  now know the horrible  vitriolic hatred my mother directed at me was really for her.  I do think she was deeply ashamed of the woman she became.  She just could not face her truth.  "Know ye the truth".

It is not about you,  it is not about me, it is about the Holy Ghost.  The Holy Ghost is real.  If clowns want to get in a pulpit and pimp Jesus, go ahead.  If you do not want to come to the Cross, into the full knowledge of the Gospel of Jesus Christ , that is your lost.

My family members that have turned their backs on me, rebuking and rejecting me because that is all my mother ever did, go ahead.  Do know she hated you too.  You insist on loving a woman that arranged your rape, stalked you with voodoo and blatant lies for sixty and seventy years , go ahead.

If you would rather trust a monster mother that never did anything but beat you savagely daily and plot against you because you are ashamed for the world to know what happened to you, go ahead.

Do know that fallen woman died laughing, died lying and disparaging.  If you prefer living broke, financially strapped, friendless, in order to protect the image of your mother, go ahead.

I've found freedom, I've found joy. I found the LORD! Pressing on in Jesus' name.

PTL!