I understand. How awful. Pretty little Martha Jane severely raped by age eight. Why did she spiral out of control for 87 years ? Was she confused, pleasure and pain, lies , the truth, worshipped, hated? Who encouraged her to lie? Where did she learn not knowing, not telling , was the same as not doing. When did screaming, name calling, slinging knives, pistols, even machetes, while roaring ; "It NEVAH Happened!" become a legitimate way to escape retribution?
It is more than apparent to me now my mother was truly a satanic siren. No doubt. When I recall the awful truth about her true character that was revealed to me over the years, I cringe. DE-MON-IC!
Demons are real! Our world is crawling with demon possessed imps that PREACH! People in authority that command respect. Bill Cosby, the coach of Penn State, Sanddusky, on and on. The Child porn industry earns billions of dollars, what, daily, weekly , I don't know? I do know it is a source of unregulated wealth and I know many mothers and fathers like my mother are far too eager to exploit they own children for filthy lucre. Not even for wealth, just a few dollars.
Why? Self hatred, self loathing, imps, volunteer slaves to satan. People crippled by weak faith. People that refuse to trust GOD . The worse of this sorry lot are women like my mother. Women that go to great lengths to ruin and crucify tiny innocent beings that can not defend themselves.
"I flushed five of you damn black ass, sorry ass muthaf******* down the toilet!" Why was she announcing this? Was she bragging? Or was she deliberating instilling more fear? Did she just want us to count ourselves lucky, so we would not complain about out nakedness? The pitiful meager clothing we were forced to wear while she wore five hundred dollar outfits to a GS-4 job? Just blatantly dressed her "kept pimp husband" in the best money could buy. One pair of shoes *ITCH!
World do know these women that sit up in the Church all day every Sunday for eighty-seven years will sell their own flesh and blood for a few dollars, terrorize and smooze over her sons with phony love. Thanking them for saving their mother, for helping her out, for keeping "their secret'."
The porn industry is thriving, low life men and women like my mother, preach, enslave, but mostly they laugh. Who is watching this filth? What? Millions? Thousands? head to foreign countries daily seeking sexual liaisons with young children. And this world says nothing. We are told to shut up and act normal. Deliberately dumbed down churches like the African Methodist Episcopal Zion denomination, (Simon Temple AMEZ Church on Yadkin Road, Fayetteville, NC) , are only interested in pimping Jesus , ignore these facts. They are just reaching for the money, obviously caring nothing for a single soul, not even their own.
I will Not! This world will know very evil, extremely demonic (often very attractive) men and women start sexually molesting their own chidden from birth in order to gain power and control over their loved ones, their victims. They just want to exploit the infirm, the unwanted, the "too dark", the orphaned children , deliberately birthed without fathers.
It makes sense to me now. My mother had been impregnated nine time before she ever "snagged" the first husband and he was old and blind. It is obvious to me that my mother suffered from the lowest self esteem possible. She should have. satan reduced her to a maggot. She rotted from the inside out.
No, I no longer feel sorry for her. GOD gave her tremendous time and space to come to the Cross sincerely. She knew she was a wretch but chose to die a miserable defeated whore, than confess or repent. That's Pride, "pride goeth before a fall."
PTL!
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