"Look well to your going …"

was wisdom passed down to me before I read it in Proverbs, GOD is telling us to always be alert. Surviving in a world crawling with predators demands constant vigilance, paranoia , rapid eye movement, extreme cautiousness. I often feel like the little timid antelope trying to sip some water from the crocodile infested stream.   It is one thing to drive defensively, but to live defensively is exhausting.

When your greatest enemy is your mother, you are going to have some bad days!  You are going to have some "difficult days ahead".   No, your mother should never be your enemy but according to Jesus we should expect it. That is awful. How can you save yourself from your own mother?  You can't. But GOD.

"Where would I be without GOD on my side?"

GOD is not impressed or influenced by reprobates up screaming (HIS) name while practicing witchcraft, incest, pedophilia, murder, adultery , assault, battery, thievery, mischief.  Wrong can not be made right.  Martha had some horrible proclivities that should have been dealt with.  She should have been incarcerated.  Failing that, she should never be honored.

The internet enabled me, helped to discover millions of women like me.  Women plagued by a monstrosity too cunning to ever get caught.    Knowing I am not alone, am not crazy, am not over sensitive,  helps me so much.  To know there are so many heartless, wicked whores just like my mother is strangely comforting.  The fact she is finally dead is exhilarating!  Joy!

To realize my family of origin is as lost, forsaken, doomed, destroyed, is heartbreaking but it is a choice.  GOD does give us free will.

Praise the LORD!