The condition my condition is in

Had a brother that shunned me for twenty-five years.  I did not blame him.  I understood his refusal to risk contact with her.  She was dangerous, intractable, MURDEROUS, and so lying, so phony, so full of jealousy and ignorance you just became numb, searched for a joint, a strong strong drink.  Why complain?  No one was going to risk their good standing with the slut to save your black ass.

GOD warns us about these women.  We don't listen.  We all have opinions, we all spread ignorance.  Far too many people that have never read the Bible thoroughly freely spew their hatred on me for what I did to my mother.  My fellow victims freely and openly hate me for snitching on their demonic , totally out of control mother!

What the fuck!? Why?  Is it your fear, your ignorance, unbelief, shock, numbness, mask, phoniness , apathy?  I have been researching child molestation and it is estimated that fully twenty-five of us are sexually molested by someone before age five.

The saddest part of this statistic is that it was presented in such a manner as to not incite outrage.  Outrage is good.  Rosa Parks was outraged.  Some gay men some where got outraged, started parading, started a movement.

I dream of such a movement.  I want every person sexually molested as a child to stand up and shame your perpetrator.  The saddest truth about my sad and pathetic mother, she was attempting to shame me because she could not forgive me for shaming her.  I was born without a father.  My "daddy" refused to marry her. She always claimed ; "It's 'cause I had all you luddle black bastards!" 

No Martha, it was because you were a promiscuous whore, you lacked discretion, you committed INCEST as a child.  Nothing was ever your fault.  You sexually molested your little brother, your mother beat you and you like the low slut you were hated your brother.

Far too many people totally misunderstand Jesus based on their dull understanding.  Even my granddaddy and he was a genius.  He kept forgiving that damn Mathy Jane, kept praying for her knowing full well that viperous  demon deserved a bullet.  Sadly he is the one that ended up with a bullet.

Thank You for keeping her confused LORD, delusional.  She surely wanted to kill me.  You did not let her.

Praise the LORD!