Don't read this blog

Don't read this blog and feel like you are better than me. "...all men are created equal and endowed by their creator with certain inalienable rights." Your life can be turned upside down in a twinkling of an eye also. When you think about it, that's how life is. We are always in shock, something is always shocking us. My grandfather taught me that ;"The unexpected is always there." Things rarely turn out the way you "expect" them.

My life has been pretty tragic, but I've done well considering. How many people can retire at fifty-seven years old?

My "mother" made it possible. She did loan me the money to buy back my years. I paid her back, plus some extra. That's the way mother and daughter should operate. That's "Divine Order". You get out of divine order when you get out of Covenant with GOD.

Too many people are out of Covenant with GOD. Too many "churches" are out of covenant with GOD. There are too many "prechas" reaching for the money. That's why you have to get into His WORD. You can not be a lazy Christian. You have to study GOD's WORD for yourself.

Jesus told you to defraud no man, but that's all you do. How do you expect GOD to bless you? You might lie your way out of something but you're still guilty. Failure to be apprehended and convicted doesn't mean that you are innocent. Don't gloat because you think you got way with something.

You didn't get away with anything! You have to look in the mirror every day. That's your brain churning in your head. You know what a scandalous hedonist you are. You know what you are and you know why.

Yes, I hate you. I hate you very much. I pray and I pray for GOD to take this hatred away and it subsides. Then I remember some terrible torturous thing you did and I start hating you all over again. You are a foul animal, you are a monstrosity! May you live long enough for me to stop hating you.

Some where along the line you got twisted, twisted bad. I hope and pray that there are not a lot of women like you. Women! I hope there are no other beings like you.

I know that I am wasting my breath but I am going to tell you any way. Defrauding someone doesn't make you smarter or better. And it shouldn't make you feel good.

When doing something bad makes you feel good, wanting to destroy everything that you perceive to be good, you've got a problem.

We will understand it better by and by. I used to see the tears well up in my grandfather's eyes. I could sense his deep sadness. The tears would run down the furroughs of his old chiseled Indian face. The tears would lock under his jaw. For some reason I just assumed that he was still mourning his murdered son.

It was you! He was crying for you! He Knew! He knew all about you. He never told us. Your daddy never talked about you. He was too much of a gentleman. Is that why you killed him? Did you murder him because you refused to live up to his standards?

Is that why you hate me? Do you hate me because my granddaddy loved me?

Yes, I do hate you but I feel very sorry for you at the same time. A very foolish woman that refuses to listen to the admonitions of her father. A silly little "strumpet" that plucked down her house with her own hands for over eighty-five years.

Poor Mathy Jane. You are like the poor dog that lost his bone in the lake snapping at his refection in the lake. The stupid dog lost his bone trying to steal the reflection of his own bone. You tried to destroy your own children. You didn't block my blessing, you blocked your own.

It is not over. It is over when GOD says its over. You better look and you better listen, all of us. GOD is trying to tell us something.

Stay in His WORD children. Be a BlessING and be blessed. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel