"I would do this..."

People are always talking about what they would do, what you should do. In reality you don't know what you would do under those exact same circumstances.

You don't know me. You can't judge me. You may hate me or you may love me, I don't know. All I know is I have a testimony. I am a fifty-nine year old retired teacher that has been saved from evil by the hand of GOD.

There was no way that I could know that I would wake up one day and discover that the one woman that I trusted with all my heart, the woman that I called "mother" was really an anti-Christ.

It is astonishing. It is mind boggling, but it is all true. Her "fruit" betrayed her, she finally came to the end of her road. She said she did the best she could and in her mind she did.

Just pray that you eschew demon possession. Pray that you don't become a slave to your lust. May you never believe in the "magic lie". I pray that you never depend on savage brutality and intimidation to get your way. I hope that you have great faith and can always depend on GOD to fight your battles.

I hope you never wake up without a family. May you never experience total rejection because you refuse to lie, refuse to be abused any longer.

Very long story short, something happened to my "mother". Something happened or failed to happen. She never developed a conscious that's for sure. She is one human being that cares absolutely nothing for anyone. No one's pain or anguish touches her. When she says she could not care less that's the truth. Your pain, your tears; "Mox nix" is her reply and she means it. You just represent a path to a dollar. She will talk to you, size you up, then start her scheme on how to separate you from your money. She has no heart, she can not love, that's why she pretends.

She said that she was raped three times as an eight year old child. I believe her. Why did I end up raped at eight years old "mother"? You were clever in your deceit, but not perfect.

I know now that you pimped me out to your second husband. How low! Why? Why would you do that to your own child, to any child ? I understand now. One of your greatest fears is and was that I would have a better life than you. That was stupid. That is unnatural. It is also proof that you are a reprobate. When GOD releases you over to a reprobate mind you are unable to have natural affection.

You are an absolute phony through and through. You don't love GOD and you don't trust GOD. You don't believe GOD. He said that when your desolation comes it will come as a whirlwind.

No, I don't like you. I wish I had never met you, but GOD had other plans. Your torture taught me that I could trust GOD. You told me that I wasn't s***. GOD taught me better.

Look at us, down to the wire. I am still screaming trying to get some one's attention, trying to get someone to care. You lying and crying, trying to drum up sympathy from your victims and minions.

Your fruit is too rotten, your legacy is too long. Every one has seen this before. You are a great talker. You are very manipulative, you can scramble a man's brains. But, every body is not stupid. I finally figured you out.

You are in denial and have been in denial for your entire life it seems.

I do feel sorry for you. Any one that can not embrace GOD's truth is in bad shape.

Let me help you out. You got pregnant for an outside lover over fifty-four years ago. Why do you feel the need to lie? Lying to this day! That divorced husband has been rotting in the ground since 1990. Don't you think your son deserves to know who his real father is? You laugh and talk about everyone else's "outside churin". I remember the man and his name. He was tall and brown just like his son. You claimed that you got sick and that caused your son to be born at sixth month gestation. I'll give you that, although I suspect something else caused your premature delivery. You gave that baby a derivative of his real father's name. The tiny baby only weighed two pounds and two ounces and he lived.

That didn't increase your faith? Are you still too blind to see how GOD has always moved in your life.

You told me that when you were pregnant with *Leo that you wrote the Apostolic Church because you were suffering with something that caused you to retain fluids. You said; "As soon as my hand touched that letter I knew I was healed! The swelling went down! That water left my body."

You believed in GOD then, you trusted GOD then.

You told me that you were "in the world" and your daddy wrote you a letter and in that letter he said;"Apart from Christ you are nothing...I never forgot that. I gave my life to Christ and I been saved eva since."

Your deeds speak volumes. Clearly you are not saved. "Be ye hot or cold!" Why do you choose to live a double life? Why are you double minded? Why do you suffer so from jealousy and envy? I know you, you know me. I've watched you up close and personal. I am not going to lie about what I see and what I know.

You are hate filled. Only GOD can take the hate and the shame. I pray every day to not hate you. I pray every day to forgive you. It is a struggle. All of my faith is in GOD. He did not bring me this far to let me fail.

Children listen to your heart, that inner spirit that GOD has placed in you. Trust GOD to lead and guide you through this journey called life. "Lean not to your own understanding." because you don't know enough. You are too gullible, too easily tricked by what you see. Walk by faith not by sight. Just because you never heard of a living breathing demon over taking a person that doesn't mean it can't and won't happen. It happened and I have the scars and evidence to prove it.

Stay in His WORD children. Don't be afraid. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace, and Happiness,
Rachel