All lies stem from fear.

My mother was a pathological liar for eighty-seven years.  She was such a liar I often wonder, am  I really her child.  Did she really birth me?   She did tell me she kidnapped me from a whore house when I was six months old.

I will always wonder if she really birthed me.  Martha was the kind of woman that would steal another woman's baby to cover some evil deed she had done.  Sure she could do it, murdered her own daddy because he was old and saving money in a bank account for his son's children.  I watched her, studied her carefully as she prepared to put him in the ground.  She was gleeful, so happy she went out a bought six new black and white outfits, mocked me for having to pay three dollars for my dress; "Here you come, begging wid yo'broke ass."

It is true.  When my grandfather was tragically murdered in 1979 I did not have  enough money to pay for a cheap rayon dress, size 4.  She mocked me, said I should crawl my worthless black ass in the coffin with him because for the rest of my life I wasn't getting shit.  Laughed, said Tucker and Sons should sell double wide caskets.

Yes, I am still researching witchcraft.  I must, my mother was one of the greatest successful practitioners that ever lived.  I uncovered something that really intrigued me this morning.

"Sorcery, pagan religion, and folklore were the first three elements in the formation of European witchcraft.  Christian heresy was fourth.  When the witch'craze began at the end of the Middle Ages, its most important beliefs were : (1) the ride by night, (2) the pact with the devil, (3) the formal repudiation of Christianity, (4) the secret, nocturnal meeting, (5) the desecration of the eucharist and the crucifix, (6) the orgy, (7) sacrificial infanticide, and (8) cannibalism.  Every one of these elements was either introduced into the tradition of witchcraft by heresy or at least heavily modified by it." A History of WITCHCRAFT  Sorcerers , Heretics and Pagans by Jeffery B. Russell.

There are three glaring facts that hit me like a ton of bricks, (6) the orgy and (7) sacrificial infanticide (8) the formal repudiation of Christianity.  I was nineteen when I witnessed my mother participate in an orgy with  four or five young soldiers.  I shall never forget it, I wanted to dig my own eyes out.

For the entire sixty-two years I knew my mother she bragged openly about the five coat hanger abortions she had.  That is sacrificial infanticide.  She beat babies ! I'm a witness .

The formal repudiation of Christianity.  No matter how many hours we spent in church on Sunday she always left saying the same thing; "Don't pay that shit no attention!  You can have too much Christ like my dumb ass daddy."

"Come Jesus!"  Dear LORD save us, save all that want to be saved is my fervent prayer, Amen.