I can't stand the pain without prayer

Dear LORD take this debilitating  pain ingrained in me during  my sixty-five year trek on this earth.  Help me to stop hating my "birth" mother as I purge her atrocities.  Let me not hate my ex-husband nearly as much as I do. I hate his memory. I hate his name.  Let me thank him for his sperm and move on.

I know we must love one another, we must try but,  we can hate evil.  This world needs to know EVIL  is in the "Church"!  Sitting up there just as big pretending homosexuality is a sin they hate.  Jesus never criticized homosexuality but,  he sure gave Pedophiles the blues.

Read your Bible, study to show yourself approved.  "Suffer the little children to come unto me, forbid them not the Kingdom of Heaven."

Martha knows full well what she did and why she did it.  Yes, Martha I understand full well why you hated me so.  I was your ninth pregnancy , wasn't I?  A beautiful , brilliant mulatto colored girl like you got ruined early,  "messed up" many times.  You had to marry an old blind man, that was the best you could do.  He didn't want you, you were too whorish, too lazy, too lying, too violent, argumentative and combative.  Then you discovered this  little short jet black pervert, someone actually more sexually perverted than you.

So, instead of trying to improve yourself , you chose to be the secret spoiler.  Yes, Martha , Jesus identified you, called you out as the ravenous wolf.  You were the worse.  You preached without repenting, MURDERED your own father and SEXUALLY, PHYSICALLY, EMOTIONALLY AND FINANCIALLY TERRORIZED YOUR OWN FAMILY! YOUR OWN CHILDREN!

Relax, this is one EVIL woman that shall proceed no further.