A brand new day!

Praise the LORD! Thank you for a brand new day LORD. Thank you for another opportunity to get it right, another opportunity to serve you. Dear LORD Thank You! Thank you for your tender mercies, for your beautiful plan. Dear LORD thank you for your courage, wisdom and understanding.

I am getting stronger, I am gradually accepting the truth. Very slowly I am starting to understand. I am unraveling this mystery. I am discovering some shameful truths that I would have rather never known.

As much as I always loved my grandfather I love and respect him more now in death than I ever did in life.

Jerome Walters was a very humble man. He was every woman's dream husband. Tall, handsome, wise, gentle and prosperous. Not only was he a true Christian he was a gentleman.

He never destroyed your name. He never told us the truth about you. He protected us from you as much as he could, but he never bad mouthed you. He never told us of the sick demonic deeds you committed before we came on the scene.

My grandfather was truly the strong silent type. He did not gossip or carry tales. If he couldn't build you up or encourage you he didn't say anything. He never relished in your pain or washed your face in your mistakes. Yea, I know the exact opposite of you.

You "dumped" us in the country every summer. That was the best thing you could have ever done. (It's called divine intervention and I still marvel.) We romped, explored , played with our cousins, absorbed our grandfather's awesome wisdom.

I was seven, maybe eight, and granddaddy would have me read books of the Bible to him and then interpret them. I didn't know it, but he was slyly teaching me critical thinking skills while introducing me to GOD's WORD.

My first lesson was the book of Proverbs. "How long, ye simple ones, will ye love simplicity ? and the scorners delight in their scorning, and fools hate knowledge? Turn you at my reproof; behold, I will pour out my spirit unto you, I will make known my words unto you." (Proverbs 1:22-23)

Believe me sister, the Bible is like Chinese arithmetic to the demonic unbeliever. Yea, you "preach", but you don't know what you are talking about. Sit down! Don't you dare disrespect GOD, putting on a show. Life is not a Tyler Perry movie. That Bible is for you too "precha".

GOD didn't give us His WORD to mock. If your church is not a real "Church" by all means play church. Hoop, holler, run around, lying and crying. Catch a feel good moment, entertain, then go home and conjure up some more evil to get into.

I heard that you have been crying. Good, "the more you cry the less you piss!" ; is what you always told me. I've only seen you cry twice in my entire life. You cried when I was eight years old and you bought me my first pair of glasses. I said " Oh! mother! The world is so beautiful!" You cried then. I thought you cried because you loved me and you were sorry for beating a little blind girl that couldn't see the clock.

Yea, you cried when *Gino finally left you. You treated that man worse than any animal. You were always loud, vulgar, ignorant, kept a nasty house, walked around "stanking" with out your partials and hair sticking up. Of course he left you! Woman what kind of demon did you get "ahold" of?

If a person has not changed in eighty-five years I believe they might not make it into the kingdom. But you the "living", the "young" can learn from her mistakes.

First of all; Trust GOD with all thine heart, lean not to your own understanding. Number two; don't LIE! You must be an honest person in all that you do. Nothing is more offensive than a liar. Lying is worse than putrid bad breath. It is insulting and I will not tolerate it. I am not "even" going to pretend that a liar is telling the truth. "Get the behind me Satan!" Just how do you think you can get away with lying to GOD? GOD knows all and sees all.

How ironic, the one admonishment that you used to scream for hours was; "He said a liar wud'nt tarry in His sight!" Who knew all that clamor and screaming was coming from a pathological liar?

Well it worked on me. "Ain't GOD good!" I am growing stronger every day. I don't think you started out to become one of the commonest vilest women that ever lived on this earth, but you did. It's cool, GOD saved me.

There are some things that you did I have to laugh at. I look back, thank GOD and laugh. You had me driving *Goat's old Mercury Cougar without any brakes! You sly dog you. You tried to get me killed but GOD stepped in on time! You can't beat GOD,why don't you quit trying? The devil will embarrass you. Look at you, a "root working" preacher. Nobody can defend that. You are down there in that hole looking up because you wanted to drive a second hand Cadillac, wanted to be the "top of the bottom".

"The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge; but fools despise wisdom and understanding." (Proverbs 1:7)

"How long, ye simple ones, will ye love simplicity? and the the scorners delight in their scorning, and fools hate knowledge." (Proverbs 1:22)

Number three; "Seek the mind of Christ." do not walk after the evil imaginations of your heart. "Step out on the wings of faith." Tap into GOD's goodness, trust Him.

No, you did not defeat me. You said that you did the best you could, perhaps you did. I know you can't get everything. No one's life is perfect or painless. I certainly know that I was tethered to the worse possible "mother" but GOD in His infinite wisdom balanced that "creature" with my great grandfather. He stood in the Gap for his grandchildren. He was a very wise man, he taught by example and saved my life. He saved our lives.

You proved to be a waste but that's your choice. You still have free will. I know I have a resource in Christ. GOD has never denied me anything that I asked for. He strengthens me, leads and guides me and protects me from Evil. GOD has always protected me from you and He always will.

Stay in His WORD children. Be richly blessed. Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel