The Devil Is A Liar! (Part II)

The longer I live the more I learn. The more I learn the more I understand. Those tears, the tears I saw my granddaddy shed so often. Those soft gentle tears that would lock under his chin. I observed them much too often. A grown man forced to cry by his ignorant wayward daughter, it is like "rottenness to the bones".

Standing strong and silent, looking just like a wooden Indian. He stood erect with his head unbowed, but he cried. He didn't boo hoo or moan, but he cried. I call them manly tears. I know now that he was in a lot of pain. He suffered with you for a very long time. Incorrigible and bullheaded you never did anything but make your father ashamed and then got fighting mad with anyone that tried to correct you.

You, Mathy Jane, were not going to be corrected or criticized by anyone for any thing, ever! No one and sadly in your mind the least of all was GOD. Incorrigible and defiant GOD gave you over to a reprobate mind.

How long have you known? You've always known that is why you have been so deadly. You know that you are a snake that is why you act like a deadly snake. You call me a snake just for fun. Throw a fly in the ointment, watch him squirm.

You can't punish GOD for your "unacceptability". No body wants trash. You can't make me accept trash. You can't control my destiny and you can't shut my mouth. What you did was stupid, it was corrupt and foul and you ought to acknowledge that. I wasn't there but I can clearly see how you used your "attack" as a weapon against your parents. You skillfully wedged yourself between them and made them hate each other, blame each other.

His oldest son, the son that he knew was his, bled to death in his arms. A beautiful young man, seventeen, tall and strong. A good son, and obedient son. He never said it aloud but I know he had to wonder why. Why the good son? What did he do? Why did he have to suffer pain and humiliation from this "daughter" over and over?

Thank you! I've really learned something. GOD has a plan for each and every person on this earth. You can't buy or win GOD's favor by going to church or paying your tithes. GOD has a plan for all of us. Live the life GOD planned for you. Live by GOD's WORD, trust Him, and Him only.

You were successful in the sabotage of that "union". Who was that man? How did he get his hands on you? "Every body always blamed my mama, said she was trying to go wid him."

You deliberately exploited the guilt of both your mother and father to get what ever you wanted. Your brother was "murdered" when you were thirteen. You took advantage of their grief and indulged yourself in forbidden pleasures. They could never correct you. Your mother excused and supported your lying. She thought your daddy was too strict until you came up pregnant.

That's the loop you got caught in; committing sick reprehensible deeds, vehemently denying, hating and punishing your admonishers, plotting and carrying out revenge on any and every one dumb enough to trust you.

You, Mathy Jane, hate yourself. You hate your self with a passion. You hate yourself for being weak and undisciplined. You never believed your father when he told you that your strength comes from GOD. You never believed your father when he told you to trust in GOD only. Some how you stumbled upon lying, using your brilliant imagination to create a false world where only you reigned supreme. You believed your own lies. You rationalized your life away. I know that it didn't take long to get to be eighty-five. I know because I went to bed at twenty and when I woke up I was sixty.

Unlike you, I know I learned some thing. Through the grace of the LORD Jesus Christ I have lived a life that I can be proud of.

Perhaps "hide" is not the right word, your deeds were never fully hidden, just not talked about. We all knew you were a big whore, we just didn't talk about it. When you did something scandalous yet again, we just didn't talk about it. We never talked about you putting "roots" on cousin Rachel. Granddaddy just reminded you that you were going to hell, you screeched that hideous laugh again.

It is not so much that we "didn't" talk about "it" as much as it was, we "couldn't" talk about it. You had us on "lock". No body better say a thing against you and hope to live. That was a real good strategy, do what ever you want to do and pretend that you didn't do it. Pulverized and pummel any one that says different. That's you. You chose to live your life as a common immoral sadist perverted demon. That was your deliberate choice. But you are such a sick reprobate that you choose to hate people that didn't fall for the devil's lies like you did. You hate me because I didn't turn out like you. Well, it shouldn't be news to you, but there are very few women as common as you are. Women! very few people, very few human beings on this earth that suffer with your lack of morality. You have no moral compass, you will do anything. Anything, but say you are sorry. Anything, but have remorse. You will play crazy until the day you die. It has taken me sixty years but now I know better. (You) "ain't worth hauling to the field."

No, I am not GOD and I don't know when we are going to die. I know that I can go right now and every thing is fine with my soul. You took my granddaddy's life but he was ready to go. His soul was fine.

Don't worry, I will not be wasting a whole lot of breath on you. "Cast not your pearls before swine." "Never waste your breath on a fool." If you haven't learned in eighty-five years, if you haven't caught on by now, it is not going to happen.

God is going to render every man according to his deeds. Hating me is not going to help you. Hating GOD's WORD while pretending to love GOD's WORD makes you an imp.

I knew he suffered terribly from arthritis and I knew that his heart was broken.

I didn't know that he was crying for you. I didn't know that he was crying because his daughter was an evil monster. He had a child that he couldn't control. Did he know that you should have been in prison? You bragged about stabbing that woman for calling you a whore. You broke people from calling you whores, but you didn't change.

I feel sorry for you. I really do, to live a fake phony double life for eighty-five years must have been torture for you. When you can't be who you are, when you can't say what you want to say when you want to say it, you are in misery. A self imposed prison.

Woman what is it? What did you need? What did you want? You blew it! Your selfishness and greed exposed you.

Salvation is free! Why do you have such a great need to please and impress people that don't like you? Why do you hate the people that try to correct and help you?

Well, you sure messed your life up and every life you touched. I get you. Jesus said some of you would believe not (John 6:64)

"Do the best you can." Just keep living, just keep pushing one foot in front of the other. Don't worry; "Jesus will fix it."

Stay in His WORD children. Don't allow the devil to deceive you. Don't let anything separate you from the love of Christ. "Depart from evil and do good."

Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel