A strange "brag"

My mother would entertain us for hours bragging about how she messed some man's mind up, scramble his brains, rendered him helpless,  unable to think.

Just how is that pleasurable?  Why can't you work for and earn your own living?  Why must you be a predator?  Why do you brag about it?

My grandparents sent their only daughter to Virginia Union University! The "colored Harvard" at the time.  She did not last very long.  Pretended to still be attending and took money from my grandfather for tuition,  for I don't know how long,  before her ruse was discovered.

This huge indiscretion of Mathy's ended with her trying to murder her baby brother.  Again, just another one of Mathy's treacherous acts that we were forbidden to discuss.

Yes, it is true, Mathy hated any and all that managed to earn a college degree .  I  was shocked when I observed how she behaved at my daughter's graduation from Boston University and her cousin earning her masters in her senior years.  She raged! I watched her rage and was mystified.

Suddenly a college degree was easier to earn than it was in her day.  My daughter had a ;"stupid major".   "Why eva'body trying to be a writer?  Trying to major in television?   Bedder major in sumpin' whur you can find a a job!"

 Her sister/cousin was too dumb to finish high school, according to her.  She was angry that she let her cousin use her credentials to improve herself.  "Dat lying whoosh ass woman ain't nevah had no sense!"

It is more than wrong to envy and covet.  GOD commanded us not to.  Pray that feeling away.

We were confused.  Starved for love and tender affection, we took what ever this creature was handing out.  She always told me that I wasn't shit.  Shit or not, there is only so much pain and grief one person can take.

As Martha grew older her circle of trusted friends grew smaller.  Which meant she had to keep striking the same victims over and over for her narcissistic supply.

She got me too many times.  One day I finally conceded, realized that she was not worth it.  If you have such a woman in your life, I don't care how much you love her, think you need her, "from such stay away."

[Excerpt from THE JR WALTERS CHRONICLES  December 2, 2014   All rights reserved.]