What had I done, what could I have done that was so terrible? She claimed that I had not repaid her the three hundred dollars she loaned me for a car in September. It was Christmas. Instead of giving my mother her three hundred dollars back immediately , I spent it on lavish Christmas gifts for her. Her reaction; "I don't want this shit! I WANT MY MUTHAFUCKING MONEY!"
Yes, I knew most parents tried to give their children new cars for graduating from college. My mother gave me a cheap watch and dinner at a Sizzlers. She made a big deal, tried to convince me we were dining at one of the world's finest establishments as we pushed our trays, filled our plastic cups, gathered our own eating utensils and napkins.
Truthfully I was very happy. That was the most attention and the most money my mother had spent on me in years. I didn't mind. One thing for sure , my mother reminded me that I was nothing but a little black bastard for my entire life. Worse, I was female, just another cunt.
Well when I look back I can remember clearly attempting to repay my college loans, pay a car note for a car much too expensive for me. Pay my rent and try to eat regular. Yes, I graduated with honors. Went directly to Graduate school, had no babies, had a good name. What I didn't know and could not know, I was sleeping with the enemy. I was in her pocket and Martha Jane Walters was pulling all the strings. Martha fully intended to manipulate and torture me until she expired and she did!
Was I tormented, devastated? Yes, unfortunately that feeling was nothing knew. For all of my life my mother made me feel like a huge rock was lodged in my throat and I could not scream. I so get it now as I continue to celebrate her death. I do not care who you are, were you are or what you may think of me. I am one happy, jubilant person. I get up and do a Holy Ghost dance on that imp's head every morning as I pray and thank GOD for finally delivering me from that albatross I was forced to call mother.
No satan! No one is that dumb. Even that slut wasn't that dumb. INCEST!!! PEDOPHILIA! WITCHCRAFT! Nigger please. Slavery did not do that to us, to black people. You did that to your damn DUMB ASS demonic self, a grave robber!
Bitch you got exactly what you deserved, nothing! Rebuke, scorn and hatred. Rot! Rot you ignorant whore! You tried to swindle GOD! You would be laughable if you had not been so devastating.
We should have known. Some one should have known the kind of mother you were going to be. That pot of boiling hot coffee you poured on your toddler son because he could not talk, because you knew he would never tell, never reveal you.
You tried to burn my arm off! The scars are still there, highly visible. Bitch! You deliberately pushed me into a hot wood burning stove when I was THREE! My beautiful little face was your target. I wonder did GOD guard my face with my arm or did I do it instinctively. You got my oldest brother good.
Rot you "standing" unrepentant slut!
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