Dear LORD I thank you

I have five brothers that would not spit on me if I was on fire.  Why? They claim I  am unforgiving, that I can't forget.  Now, perhaps I could understand their point of view had I been the only victim of our most evil mother.

Martha Jane Walters was a SADIST!  A pure sadistic sociopath.  A MURDERER, A RAPIST, A PATHOLOGICAL LYING SOOTHE SAYER!  World, my own mother was one sick twisted sister.

Dear LORD.  When a human being is too corrupt, too foul, too lost, too low, too repulsive to be discussed in polite company you know the end is near.  You know the Bible is being fulfilled.

"Yet do I marvel" reflecting on all of the very evil deeds Martha committed against me, against us, against her entire family.  Against every one that ever came in contact with her.   When I permit myself to recall just a few of the awful things she did to me I crumble, must take medication.  I pray, I fast, I cry.  I curl up in a fetal position and just shake.  I rock . I self soothe.

Why GOD permitted such a low foul woman to live so long and terrify so many is GOD's business.  I trust (HIM).  While Martha just knew her evil secret acts were destroying me little did she know GOD was building me, fortifying me, preparing me for such a day as this.   Yes, my own mother crucified every fiber of my being, tried desperately to make me the low whore she was.  Enslaved me!  Made me keep her filthy nasty house clean, hang up her clothes, bow at her feet.  Forced me to clean up after her fornication when I was eleven years old!

I hear you world.  All my critics scream "Shut up!" we can't hear any more.  We can't bear to listen.  Well, I lived it!  What about me?  What about my brothers?  What about the ones she stripped naked , beat bloody and raped? What about them?

What about her false preaching for thirty-three years? What does her church Simon Temple A.M.E. Zion Church on Yadkin Road in Fayetteville, North Carolina have to say? Nothing!  Why?  She told me they were all greedy dogs just like her.

Keep on sinner man.  Keep on ignoring GOD.  Keep on brothers.  Keep on lying and cloaking for your stank evil mother.  She laughed at you too.  She cast you down also.  Laughed at you, mocked you and deliberately ruined you for her sadistic pleasure.

I sank to my knees grief stricken when the brother that was so savagely treated by her screamed at me, rejected me for not honoring "our mother".  We never had a mother you idiot! We had a demonic succubus that birthed us out of her corrupt womb and made our lives miserable for fun.

GOD said No!

No I will not shut up!  I'm telling, I'm testifying until other men and women come out from among such women. Jesus told us, warned us that mothers would be against daughters, fathers against sons.  (HE) did not say you had to remain broken, destroyed because the woman you called mother was unworthy. You are not forsaken.  That succubus Martha had to come her, had to imprison us, had to torture us.  We had to endure to the end.

It is all good because I am sure without my Mathy Jane Experience I would have remained as faithless as the world I live in.

"Come ye out from among them."