You got to know!

We say; trust your gut, but it is not your "gut", it is the Holy Ghost.  It is GOD"S Spirit.  Do not refuse it.  Do not be so proud, or so foolish as to ever believe you can make it, that you can navigate yourself on this journey, alone, without GOD.  There are just too many vipers, too many snakes.  You need Divine Order.  You need GOD'S vision.

Well, be proud, be like my mother.  Talk about a royal fuck up! Pride!  All that pride and no money.  I can understand DT's blatant ignorance.  He is too wealthy.  If you can't tell a nigger with fifty more dollars than he needs anything, how can a pompous old white man ever learn, ever listen?

It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than it is for a rich man to get into heaven. He can't hear, he won't listen.

Of all my mother's problems, her lack of caring, her inability to feel love was her greatest downfall.  She could fake, she mimicked very well.  She just could not follow through with genuine kindness.  She resented, she compared, she kept score, she could not love.

Do not be surprised. Most hearts have waxed cold.  People can not care.  Most people are so caught up in earning a living, trying to keep the bills paid, trying to keep the lights on, that they can't hear.  No matter our status, we all struggle.

Now that I'm old and worn out I wonder aloud; "What the fuck!?"  Why did I spend so many hours after school, on weekends preparing lessons, gradings assignments?

I loved it!  I loved teaching for a very long time,  then things changed. The tail started wagging the dog.  Pompous rude parents started stalking teachers via "Gradebook" or what ever fucking name some school system allows.

I could not teach for delusional parents hovering over their viperous lying offspring.  Too many parents are  living in denial, years too late to parent that viper that is a carbon copy of them.   Your child is already a pervert.  A lying miscreant!  Yet, you have the muthafucking time to email me every fucking god blessed hour with your frustrated bullshit!  You know I can't tell you what I want to tell you , so you have the fucking nerve to give me suggestions on my teaching methods.

You did not finish high school! You dumb bitch!  Go lose some fucking weight!  All you do is get on the computer worrying the fuck out of teachers all damn day!  Bitch! I'm tired, I'm busy.  You only have one of these little fuckers, I have over  one hundred and fifty!

Thirty years is long enough to do anything.  You don't have to be old to retire, to want to change.  I know America's educational system is in the shit hole where it should be.