I always knew this day was coming ...

I just didn't know when.  I could smell it, it's awful oder was in the air.  Yes, I always knew that it wasn't going to end well but,  I went along for the ride.

I was sitting silently beside my mother in her husband's "First Sargent's" office. The white man had turned red. Was bellowing by now.  He was outraged as he screamed at my mother; "Ma'am! I can't make that man go back to you!"

"We have a little baby, A NEW BORN BABY! " she screamed back!

We left Ft. Lee, Virginia  disappointed and empty handed.  Martha combed that post but could find no evidence of her  new Cadillac or her third husband.  I know now Martha was a spoiled brat , very used to getting every thing she ever wanted.  She wanted a tall good looking  man, one that looked foreign, looked Arab. She found one. He was too young and she was too evil. too corrupt.

She talked to that man worse than she talked to us.  Martha had to believe in "voodoo".  Only "voodoo" could have enabled her to get and keep such a fine young man so long.

I was only nineteen.  I went for the ride.  "Come on Gwen! We riding!"  That meant my mother was "strapped", was roaring mad.   How dare this nigger leave her!  He was coming back! Martha was not about to have that shit!

Anyway, he got away.  Never came back except to see my brother graduate from Medical School.  Martha milked that shit like she had done it.

"Endure to the end. Endure to the end."