At the tender age of fifteen I was more than horrified, I told GOD no thank you. I felt that I would rather be dead than ever decay to that degree. That is what I declared in my head at the time.
"Youth is a vapor". Actually a fine mist. If you blink, you can miss it. It is not fair for some old fizzled out fag like my mother to get away with robbing our youth of their innocence and joy because s/he demands to blame the world for not serving it up to her as promised.
Was Martha truly that ignorant and selfish? She was never sorry for opening the skull of her two year old brother. No sorrow! ? I certainly witnessed her bludgeon her new husband's ass for rudely interrupting her very act of adultery. She made him cry and plead for her to forgive him!
Martha was never sorry or apologetic for anything she did to any one ever for any reason. If anything, she was irritated that you kept annoying her with your whining and complaining.
No, some one has to tell you, some one has to tell this world; cruelty is not courage. There is no such thing as a "good lie", a "necessary lie". All lies stem from fear, some form of cowardice. Trace your fear, back your train up. Retrace your steps. Go back, discover where you went wrong. Go back to where your world went wrong, the place where your caregivers failed you.
Heal yourself.
Praise the LORD!
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