Hold up +_)(*&^%$#@!

Just what do you think you are doing and just who do you think you are doing it to!?  GOD told you not to mock (HIM),  not to lie, steal or kill.  You came here and did it all,  over and over.   Not only did you do it, laughed about it, bragged about it.

You were a beast Martha!  You deliberately held us hostage, stole and destroyed our dreams simply because some "Indian" that looked like Robert Ryan ruined you,  and refused to marry you.

No one wants a whore Martha.  Male or female.  And if you are going to be a whore you can't be a vicious brutal savage one like you were.  I don't know why you thought you fooled anyone regarding your sexual preference.

You know what Martha, the more I think about it, the more I  realize you were transgender.  You shaved daily, had a very deep voice.  You certainly had the sexual appetite of a lusty primitive man. Bitch,  you could fight!  Muhammad Ali could not have layed a glove on you.

Yes, I know I can fight too.  I learned early from you.  I have been in a few fights.  Yes, I did turn vicious.  Yes, I did put some serious hurt on a few people.  I made my point without fully taking their lives and I left all of them with something to remember me by.  That's sad.  That is savage.  But, that is the world we live in.

I taught for thirty years reminding my students that I loved Jesus, was not Jesus,  and it would behoove them to not get us confused.   I do thank GOD that I never caught a case.  I thank you LORD.  Keep my volatile temper in check.  Keep me from spewing the pent up rage I have against my mother on others.

She is dead now.  I endured.  I recognize I benefited tremendously from her sick petty, pathetic mind.  She knew better.  The low slut was a low slut because she wanted to be a low slut.  "Shun the very presence of evil."

It is my greatest desire to reverse the curse.    "Come ye out from among them."  My relatives that are still in denial are going to find themselves faced with this truth very soon.   If your name is Walters or Doster and you are related to me,  people are going to ask you; "What did you know and when did you know it?"

I am pretty much revolted by the fact that I know my mother was putting on, was deliberately "playing" me.  Was never more than a "Carnie", a con artist, a pathological liar, a woman of very little faith in anything but primitive slave hoodoo.  That was her lost.  She was a brilliant actress.  She could have been Lena Horne or Dorothy Dandridge but her insane jealousy and infantile ego prevented her from ever growing as a human being.

What an idiot.  The choice is yours ladies and gentlemen.  You may choose righteousness or you may choose evil as Martha clearly did.  Why?  She was a delusional lying Imp for satan.

You have a choice.

Praise the LORD!