"She got messed up."

When I was growing up,  which was in fact eons ago, the term "got messed up" was understood to mean that some young woman's life had been ruined by some no account man that had done the unthinkable and then refused to do the only honorable thing, marry.

We all whispered about the young ladies in our high school or college that had a quicky wedding and a miraculous healthy baby within months.  We whispered among ourselves, harmless gossip.

So, for my own mother to be discovered in wrong doing against me (for always) is more than heartbreaking.  It is earth shattering.  Call me dumb, call me naive, I did not know any human being could ever be that evil,  secretly.  It never occurred to me.   Call me stupid for believing what people say.  For some reason I have always said exactly what is on my mind.  I always assumed everyone else did like wise.

Now I know,   people will say anything to get what they want.   My mother was extremely selfish, coupled with extremely lazy, followed by extremely immoral.  When any person, particularly a female  is willing to have sex with their own first cousins,  the war is lost.  Game over.  Take your marbles, your pride and go home.

Live alone, live in a cave.  Withdraw from the world.  This is not your time to be here.

Mr. Donald Everette, a very white red headed man, my eight grade teacher purely loved me as a father. He made the mistake of praising me to my mother.  Now I know why my own mother set about trying to get me impregnated by my "stepfather".

No, world there is absolutely no excuse for such unbridled evil.  The Holy Spirit kept Martha's deep evil in check.  I survived.

Now, don't you ever forget GOD told us not to mock (HIM).  Martha did.  She sure did! That is not good, you can not excuse or ignore evil.

"Come ye out from among them."

Praise the LORD!