"Bring this shit to a screeching halt!"

While my mother was evil she was thoroughly convinced that she had to be.  She hinted that she had tried sincere salvation once.  She talked like she was plucked like a chicken.  "Honesty don't git you no fuckin' where!  Don't pay no attention to all that Christ shit!  You can have too much religion! Exercise some common fucking sense!  You got to do some things fuh yo'sef!"

Of course I did not realize she was defending her practice of witchcraft.  I do understand why my  mother was drawn to it.  It was so lucrative.  A woman born in 1925, a child of the Great Depression would be impressed by her ability to swindle so many people,  so brilliantly, for so long.

Plus, Martha was just playing, very much like a small child playing house.  Dressing in her regalia , affecting a phony foreign accent , transforming herself into Madame ******.

I enjoyed it too.  I was only fourteen.  I was fascinated.  I saw the money, the hams, bushels of corn and sweet potatoes.  I saw the money handed over to her to be sacrificed.  We laughed, went shopping. (Bitch didn't get me shit.  I got to carry the tons of shit to the car.  If I begged long enough I got one thing.  One fucking thing!)

Patience is our problem.  We are a micro wave generation.  We want,  what we want,  when we want it.   No matter how fast this world is moving,  we must all pause and think.  We must let GOD lead us by example.  Even people unfamiliar with the Bible, with the Word, know Jesus was always separating Himself.  He was always seeking solitude, getting away from the crowd.

What ever you do, THINK!  "Milk doesn't do the body good.  Milk does the milk industry, the milk lobby,  good."  Luckily for me I could never drink cow's milk.  Would you ever use a public bathroom unless you had an emergency?  So,  why do you send your child to a public school?  If you are economically challenged you have no choice.   If you don't know that you have been woefully un or miseducated yourself.  If you are also racist and see whites as superior.  If you participate in, believe in "The blacker the slacker" you get what you get.

If you live in a great neighbor and it is a real school,  I can understand why you trust them.  But why do so many people trust the people they love with hypocritical racists deliberately dumbing up their children?  In my thirty years of teaching I did witness some teachers with extremely low expectations for black students.  True, some had low expectations for all students but there were far too many white teachers that had low expectations for black students.  I was told that my expectations were much to high. My always referring to my students as scholars was called uppity.  We laughed.

 Again, it is a self fulfilling prophesy.  Some students will find any excuse to be lazy anti-intellectuals.

Why does your child dress like a fashion model on a runway for free?  Why are you fronting and flexing, attempting to cause others to envy you?  Why is your ego so shallow?  Why do you waste so much money trying to impress people you hate?

Why can't you face your truth?  Why do you hate me for knowing  your truth?  Why do you insist that I still fear you?   What good is a lie?  The longer you lie,  the dumber you look.  Surely to GOD you are not as thick as you pretend.  Americans know President Obama deserves to be called PRESIDENT!  Damn racist have taken disrespect to a new level.  President Obama can not be reduced to some illiterate shiftless coon.  Hate him all you want.  It is obvious that you are envious, jealous.  Most importantly you are wrong.  People will eventually realize they have been duped.

Retirement has been the best medicine for me. I have been able to escape the maddening crowd.  I don't have to get on the "Deathway"  every morning.  Day Light Savings Time doesn't mean shit to me.   My mother made that possible.  She did loan me the money.  She did make my retirement possible. I do thank her for that. She did facilitate my brother getting his knees fixed.  Far too many people have followed a buffoon into the fire.  Now many are trying to back their backward asses out of the lion's mouth.  Good luck!

She did hurt me cursing me like she did.  She did refuse to comfort me knowing full well she never did anything but deliberately stalk me in  order to cause me harm because her old ass was jealous.  It is not my fault that she chose satan.  She chose immediacy , expediency,  over GOD.   "You get what you get."  "We all get our just and honest due on this planet earth."

Yes, you tortured me and GOD took that torture and created an eloquent writer, an artist, a teacher, a kind loving person.  A woman that not only seeks to know GOD but wishes the same for this entire world.

Your deliberate mistreatment of me as a mother made me a great mother.  My greatest desire was to bestow the love I longed for on someone else.  That someone else is someone special.  Someone so Jerome Walters like I tremble.  Is reincarnation possible?  A child that loves baseball?  Listens to it on the radio just like granddaddy.  A brilliant scholar just like granddaddy!

It is all in Divine Order!

Praise the LORD!