I literally tremble. I am so humbled, so unworthy of your love and salvation.
My psychiatrist diagnosis is spot on; Post Traumatic Stress Disorder with delayed expression. Perfect. That is exactly what is wrong with me. In my head I carry so much trauma beginning before I had a memory, before I had consciousness.
My mother used to complain that my "sorry ass nigger daddy" went to get some milk and never came back. My first crib was a dresser drawer .
Now Martha, whose fault was that? You complained that my tall handsome daddy wasn't shit. You claimed he ruined you. Martha, weren't you already ruined? I was your third full term pregnancy, third "live birth". How many times did you attempt to trap a man via your vagina?
Why rage with hate when someone happens to mention none of your six living children had the same daddy? Why roar and rebuke the truth? The truth never changed. You were an extremely fertile whore. You had babies from age sixteen to forty-two. Why hate your own children? I didn't ask to come here. Believe me, if I had been in a position to choose my own mother , I would have never picked you. You were a horror! How you got up every day for eighty-seven years as one hopeless demonic whore and never care, never try to change, I will never understand.
Yes, I am so glad your sick repugnant ass finally died . I would not trade it for all the money in the world. What I want is for this world to know women like you are not only possible, but predictable.
Yes, I remember you attempting to kill my uncle when he complained about how I looked, how you treated me. Dirty raggedy draws, snotty nose, unwashed, unkempt, and obviously unloved. You raged, grabbed granddaddy's shotgun. You were always "cutting the fool".
Martha did you ever notice that you always got your way by playing pure savage? Pounding that puppy to death as a small child was just the beginning of your debauchery. Yes, you were despicable. Yes, it took me a very long time to catch on , to see, to recognize that you "got off", received some kind os sexual carnal pleasure from committing sick deplorable acts against your own kin, your own flesh.
"Delayed expression"; exactly. How many hours did you have this little three year old terrified, held captive down in the woods while you cursed me? Why did you torture us, your little black illegitimate toddlers with hot soapy enemas? Why did you beat us so savagely in private and attempt to play "loving mother" in public?
Mental illness is no joke, demon possession is at an all time high. Not just in the world but in the so-called "Church". There is no excuse for the African Methodist Episcopal Zion Church to harbor such creatures as you. When such ordained pastors are revealed to be affiliated with that church it should do what it can to help heal the broken.
Pastor of Simon Temple on Yadkin Road, in Fayetteville, North Carolina , at least warn your congregation. Warn them against the evils of practicing WITCHCRAFT, of Pornography, of just being a lying, sniveling, sneaky, greedy coward.
Failure to rebuke, to criticize, to even acknowledge that such a woman preached falsely in your church for decades indicts you. You are winking at evil. You are condoning the works of such low vipers. Pastors of Simon Temple do know Martha declared you to be her equal, to be a closeted homosexual "root worker", just like her.
Your silence proves it.
Praise the LORD.
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