Is it wonderful? Is it worth it?

Jesus told me to know my truth, that I would be set free.  My brother told me not to know my truth, to just let it go.  He told me no one would care when I told and that I would just end up  hurting  worse.  Except I can't.  I am still blurry eyed amazed by the extent of Mathy's deep depravity.  A woman so disturbed she took on aliases, hid behind many names.  Martha, Martha Jane, Janie, Martha Jean, Jean, Jeanie, Mathy, Mathy Jane, Madame *******, Miss Rico, Madame Rico, Reverend ******. and finally Mother of the church.  What a crock!

It seems Martha spent eighty-seven years constantly re branding herself, re-packaging, attempting to make something, someone more acceptable out of pure garbage.  Some one that would be loved and adored. Impossible!

What a waste.  All of this sick tragedy, waste of fortune and talent  because my mother could never accept or tell the truth about anything.  I am sure she secretly blamed her rape for her perversion.  I am sure she was never bothered by one single act of her perversion.  The only thing that ever bothered Martha about being perverted was the fact she had to hide it.

My mother always tried to hide her sick repugnance behind the book of Romans, "We all have sinned."  Yes, we all have sinned but we are not all demon possessed "root workers" viciously plotting and planning the most excruciating pain against those stupid enough to love her!

I am so glad that I can finally celebrate my mother's death!  I am so glad I can get up rejoicing that negative repugnant, repulsive, demonic spirit is no longer around to plague me in the flesh.  I am still purging.  I  had to learn, I had to finally recognize what a hideous monster I was actually battling.

Martha was such a common wretch she demanded to rape, rob and ruin us with our permission.  My heart is broken.  My brother is brilliant!  He was practicing acupuncture in the late seventies.  His jealous mother chose to enslave him, exploit him, to use him.  His own mother sought his destruction and won.

Martha used to brag to XXX how she attempted to abort him at least three times.  "Shit! It hurt too fucking much!  I just gave up! He-he-he-eeeeeeeeeeeeeee!"

It is paramount that the world learn of the pain caused by the THOTs.  THOT- That 'hoe out there! is a real woman.  Far too many women are THOTs.  Yes, we are crazy.  We are the result of abuse, sexual, physical, emotional,  and spiritual.  We are human.  Do not just talk about us, help us.

Men, stop impregnating  women you have no interest in.  Stop producing human beings you know that THOT is going to punish, torture.  You know she is a fucking slut incapable  of any form of decency.

Must you have sex with such a woman?  Is she worth it?  She is nasty!  What are you going to say to her when she suggests you "lie" with her children?  Her daughter?  Her SON?

Jesus told us these ravenousness wolves would put on sheep's clothing, would infiltrate our "churches",  our homes.  Cast them out!

I can still see the cold wicked demonic stare of my mother.  It was horrific.  It would make you pure shit on yourself.  Martha did conjure up evil  demonic spirits  from the grave.  I saw one.  It went through my body! It did not linger. (Praise the LORD)

For years and years Martha convinced us that we could not hate her, tell on her or in any way defend ourselves and yes she got to mock us, torture and belittle us and we better not say shit.  Martha was a true sadist that could not take any pain personally.  I had my daughter, twenty-eight hours of natural child birth and she never knew when her babies got here because she always demanded something for the pain, demanded to be knocked out.

How ironic, someone that lives to secretly inflict excruciating pain could not take the slightest discomfort.

I am so humbled by the goodness of GOD to keep me blind concerning Martha's true hatred of me.  I felt it but I didn't know it.  My self-esteem was so low that her constant mistreatment of me never phased me.

I am very glad to say that I was always good to her.  That speaks well of me.  Sure, she told abominable lies on me but a lie is lie and a lie can't live forever.  Evil women like Martha can't live forever either.

"The wicked shall cease from troubling."

Martha was a great writer that never wrote, never published because she was always pre-occupied attempting to destroy the gifts and talents of others.

I am a great writer that never successfully published because I was to busy battling racism and jealous niggers.  NIGGERS!  Pure niggers following me around destroying my art, my manuscripts!

My daughter made it!  She is a black woman that gets paid to WRITE!  Praise the LORD!

"Bow down satan!"  Rot you stinking slutty cur!  How dare you think, ever believe,  that you could come here to this earth and do just like you pleased!    What did you do Martha Jane Walters!?   You proved that Book is real!  You proved that Almighty GOD has a Plan, that it is all in Divine Order!

Praise the LORD!