Wrong is wrong, ...

wrong can not be made right.  Hating the messenger will not absolve you of your guilt.

Hating me, treating me with contempt because my mother was vile makes no sense to me.  I have some pride.  I am a child of the King.  Almighty GOD loves me too!  GOD loves everyone.  GOD loves the sinner! GOD loves the pervert! The sexual abuser, molester, pedophile!  You have to admit it.  If you are not going  to admit it, at least quit it.  Stop! My mother hated being called a whore but she was a WHORE!   A whore to the degree this world can not handle.  Her solution was to terrorize the shit out of every one that knew and was foolish enough to mention it.

I will never understand why it never occurred to me to kill her?  I plotted murders.  I plotted many murders.  I was as serious as a heart attack.  Thank you LORD for saving me.  Perhaps I was never more than  a bloodclot to my own mother.    That was her ignorance, her lost.

One thing my whole Mathy Jane Experience has taught me, never love or trust any human being based on  kinship or "love".   Always respect yourself, always look out for yourself.

I will never forget how my mother's back looked to me as I followed behind her in the Military Police office as she quietly and proudly bailed her perverted husband from his very temporary confinement.

(Does this woman think I'm an idiot?  I frowned, was more than a little skeptical but I was still far too young and innocent to know how immoral and common my own mother  actually was.)

If you are a sexual freak and brag about being a sexual freak, please do not involve children.   If you do, when finally confronted in your eighties, do not curse your innocent victims out claiming to be an ordained minister.  If you are the victim of such a woman, say so.  Do not let a lecherous viper from the bowels of hell rip you off from the grave.

What have you to lose?  You do know she did everything in her power to destroy you since your conception?  We all would have done better with a wire monkey.  At least a wire monkey can't hate you, secretly stalk you, desperately doing everything in her feeble power to destroy you., all your siblings, your entire family.  

"Come ye out from among them."

Praise the LORD!