I shall never forget it!

"Well fuh'git it den!"  That was it.  That is about as close  as you were going to get to closure with Mathy.  And now you are marked for daring to say something, for having enough grit in your craw to say something.  You were going to get "throwed at".  Your luck was going to  change.   The IRS was going to come knocking .  Some garnishment from thirty years prior would show up.  You were going to wreck your car, get fired.  No one was ever going to love you.  You would never have a spouse.  You were permanently unlovable. You knew because your mother told you.

 Just pray you don't die and pray you don't come down with shingles like that fourth husband.  "Appease her!  Appease the bitch.  Just hide.  Stay in your room.  Read!  Bury yourself in books, in the Bible.  Pray! Fast! Search.  Search for answers to explain this motherfucker!"

Fear!  I know Jesus said "Fear no man" but (HE) didn't have to survive Mathy Jane.  I know without (HIM), without the Holy Spirit I never would have made it.

No, Martha did not play fair.  No, she had no morals, none!  Common men and women should stop reproducing says the humanness in me.  I know GOD has a reason for my Mathy Jane Experience.  I embrace it!  Women, minorities, abused children have come a long way.

"My people perish for lack of knowledge."  Read your Bible! Stand up to all imps!  Demons bow down!

Praise the LORD!