"Déjà Vue all over again."

Sitting in my backyard in the early morning sunlight, admiring my huge Sycamore tree, Magnolia, Pear and Peach trees.  Just soaking up GOD's Goodness, listening to His voice as I filter out foolishness.  Remember to dis-rember nonsense.  I go down the mental list of positive affirmations I have created and collected over the past 64 years.

• "I was born for Greatness!  If I am to Be, What I want to Be, IT IS UP TO ME!"
• JESUS WILL FIX  IT!
• My "Amina Christi" Prayer
• The LORD's Prayer
• The fact that satan is a LIAR and a conjurer too

My "mother" was a conjurer.  A very selfish conjurer that did all of her conjuring for the benefit of self.  Martha was such a common low slut.  (I must call it as it was.  She was not a lady.  Why she gave whores and whoredom a bad name.)

She picked on, deliberately targeted her own family.  A true coward, she was not about to try her "mess" on any one but the unsuspecting and those that foolishly loved and feared her.  She better be glad she kept that secret close to her cold demonic heart.

My daughter shakes her head, puzzled by the fact that we never killed her.  Never so much as plotted.  We were too afraid.  WE WERE TERRIFIED!  

Parents  puzzled by your wayward children that disrespect you, talk back,and disobey, "BEAT'UM!"  Beat them into total submission.  Be sure you totally destroy their self-esteem with nonsense about skin color and hair texture.  Never get off of that topic.

Pound ignorance and fear into their heads.  Make them pray for death.

Everything that happened and is happening in my life right now was predestined to happen,  I had to come to this earth, perhaps "back to this earth", I don't know.  AND I CAME TO "BE",  make sure you know that.  Don't you ever forget  that I told you so!  

I had to meet the likes of Mathy Jane.  GOD permitted it because He has a plan for my life.  He knew that I would be the one to finally tell and I would tell it eloquently.  He also knows my tenacity, my courage, my rage.  He knows that He put Jerome Walters here to imbue, endow me with wisdom, right thinking, the power of observation, articulation.

My grandfather was popular, well liked, very respected and very "well off".    Not necessarily  rich in "folding money"  but he had land, a debt free farm, a huge rambling house with a wrap around porch,  orchards, vineyards, but most of all he had character.  Character was something Mathy Jane lacked.  Brains, beauty and extremely low morals are not a good mix.  A pretty woman can get a man but she sure can't keep him.  The same for a "pretty man".  Low morals make the finest man a monster, repugnant and stank .

No one wants something any warm body can get with a wink and a dollar.  That angered Mathy Jane.  She just wanted the thrill, the ride.  I do believe she conveniently and subconsciously blamed it on her rape, rapes.

The fact is Martha Jane Walters was a carnal lying reprobate.  We all are to some extent.  Most people put the brakes on when it comes to group sex or homosexual sex acts.  Not Mathy.  Not,  if she thought she could keep it secret.  There was NOT one word in that Bible she believed in, that Bible she  read from every Sunday was for show ad for YOU!  

Mathy was not about to give up her carnal pleasure for anyone.  Ironically that was one of the last decent conversations I had with her.  "If GAWD created any thang bedder dan sex …He kept it fuh hizsef."

Wow! I thought, is she saying that because she knows how successfully she robbed me in that area?

Children do know that the evil one never tires of hurting your feelings, of crushing you, of making sure nothing is left of you, but dust.    That was Martha, a sick whore that found herself pregnant often.  From 1941 through through 1968.  Not one maternal instinct.  Martha would beat a baby, especially if she deemed it too dark.  She would  molest and rape at will and would just as quickly run to the graveyard praying to get away.  Laughing!  We entertained, loved and harbored satan's chief imp, unawares.

I was two years old when I started taking mental notes of this foul demon that totally controlled me.  GOD told me she had to be, to "let her let", that He would square me away one day, when the time cmd, in His Divine Order.    GOD also told me to tell you because these Mathy Janes have taken over.  They are in the "school house" "messing with children".   Deliberately depriving them of a decent education.  Just dumbing them up, warehousing them, cranking out vipers much faster than satan can keep up.

They are in the "church house", full up to the brim, secretly blocking, just spies for satan.  GOD is tired of us just praising Him, and never trusting Him.  Just looking, just looking and hating, coveting, getting jealous and envious.  Over looking our own precious unique gifts, lusting after someone else's glitter.

GOD is also laughing, "Black people" mad, angry with a "white Woman" for "passing for black".  Who cares?  Be what you want to be! 

I find it incredibly human that people who have never shared my blog, refuse to join it, have no problem demanding that I shut up BECUSE THEY FIND MY SUBJECT MATTER TO DISGUSTING FOR THEM.  Never mind the millions of infants being raped with instruments of torture,  being filmed as furiously and much faster   than I  write.

Tell the pornographic industry to quit targeting children.  This world does not want to know the true extent of chid sexual exploitation.  That would require action, some type of "struggle".  I know, like you, I am tired of struggling.  Martyrs dying and the righteous "losing".

You would have to put your name on the line as I have.  You can't.  You have skeletons in your closet. That is Demonology 101.   Get something on your victim.  They will remain silent forever.  Though the monster  be deeply dead, totally harmless.  That whore came her to leave her mark, her brand and she did.  I am 64 and my scars are still hideous! 

Her victims will take those awful demonic deeds to their graves.  (I so pray NOT)  They will willing go to hell with her!  THE TRUTH IS TOO HORRIFYING ! TOO REPUGNANT! TOTLLY REPULSIVE!  

Again I am humbled, thanking GOD for His Divine Order.  The lying whorish slut thew me under the bus in order to marry the man of her dreams.  Some one much too young for the pioneer cougar.  There I was 15!  Life ruined!  It never occurred to me; how could Martha suddenly know what she claimed she never knew?

Most people refuse to read, period.  Daily reading and consulting one's Bible is considered lame or strange at best.  Too bad I didn't know that when Jerome Walters put that Bible in my hand just as soon as he knew I could read it, age 6.

People that fail to read their Bibles for themselves are too blind, too deaf, too lost , to cry out for help.  Peter had sense enough to cry out to Jesus when he tried to walk on water.  WAKE UP! See your Glory! CLAIM YOUR GIFTS! 

Listen to GOD's voice.  Filter out the fools and nay-sayers, the impatient, those lock stepping and accepting of fickle man.  They are only accepting because they are accepted . Admired for the car they drive or their address, the right zip code, the correct weight, the right "race" and "gender".  People happy to be counted with the masses, the movie stars, man's elect. 

Be very careful of the company you keep.  Be very careful of the advice you take.  Look out for satanic verses:

• "I'd take that to my grave."
• "Just don't say nothing."
• "There is honor among thieves. "
• "I may as well, every body else is doing it."
• "I am sure GOD does not have time to care about me."