Whyyyyyyyy!?

Of course I don't know why I had to experience this horrific, gruesome journey for 64 years.  But I am grateful for every single second!  PTL!  I thank GOD for some good teachers and good preachers.  I praise and thank the LORD for buzzing in my ear without ceasing.  I thank GOD for the power of discernment, critical thinking and excellent communication skills.

I did talk to GOD this morning.  Oh, yes, I pray daily without fail.  Why? "Because He never failed me yet."  I asked GOD why was my "mother" and far too many people in this world so cruel?  He said to keep you away from me!

I said; " How so GOD?"  He said; "Baby girl when you are gripped with fear you are debilitated, immobile, frozen.  You become a robot or worse a poor defeated thing waiting on death.  "You are no earthly good."

Once you give up and let satan have her way.  [Yes, I know satan is a woman. S/he is much too devious to be a man.  Plus s/he collects testicles.  They are her trophies.]  You embolden her.  Proud that she "punked you out", stole your courage and now gets to view your fear and trembling up close,  trills her.  I know this for a fact.

I remember so clearly.  Again,  I was around 14, and we were returning from the "country", visiting my  grandfather's blind nephew.  A man my grandfather loved like he was his own son.

Granddaddy was upset, clenching his teeth as Martha drove her long sleek, much too big car back to her brick hut.    "Cuddin ****" had been chiding granddaddy over the fact that all of his  grandchildren had been severely burned while under his watch, supposedly.

Martha's grin was wide, her eyes sparkled.  My "mother" was in heaven, I could tell by her body language that she was oh so proud.    What was she so  proud of?   Another frame -up, another scam.  Here again Mathy Jane was getting away with an abominable evil that people were too  terrified of discussing.

Poor grandaddy was about to bust wide open.    I know why he didn't tell on her, failed to reveal the real culprit.  It would have been WWIII!    That "stanking 'ho" would have "cut the absolute fool" decrying, denying , lying and calling names.    And he, we,  would have to suffer for the rest of our entire lives for casting a dispersion on Mathy Jane.

That is why GOD tells us to fear no man.  Fear is satan's secret weapon. No, satan does not play fair.  satan is a manipulator.  Look at all the people decrying Gays and homosexuality while cloaking their own dark sins.

I don't know what the Bible says about homosexuality.  I know it does frown upon doing things that are  called "unseeingly".     I also know,  if people practice the sexual conduct of the old testament,  men would be sacrificing their virginal daughters to homosexuals to stir them away from those fine male angels.

Go back and read the whole story  of Sodom and Gomorrah, Lot, his wife being turned to a pillar of salt.    I know there are some stories about INCEST in the Bible.  That's my issue, that is what I want to talk about, to condemn.

Until the modern church tackles the subject of CLOSET INCEST AND PEDOPHILIA hidden in our churches, you can shut up talking to me about the horrors of homosexuality.  I personally know so many people completely ruined by their own parents, their own MOTHERS.

I know my "mother" did it, STANKING 'HO!  Did it, enjoyed it and dared us to tell it.  Why? Ate up with demons!  Why?  Stalked graveyards seeking "power" so she could do just like she wanted, with whom ever she wanted, when ever she wanted,  free of rebuke or reprisal.

So, just how did old Mathy Jane plan to keep us quiet?    TERROR!   Sheer TERROR!  Bitch!  GOD is going to get you for that savage inhuman brutal beating you laid on my 12 year old brother!  You know "he ain't gon' nevah tell'.   And you know full well,  he aint been right in the head since!   You rendered him a useless vegetable!   YOU STANK EVIL PERVERTED UNREPENTANT SCUM!

World, don't you dare think my "mother" was the first.  I know she sure felt comfortable , claimed to be in good company with her kind.  Claimed the A.M.E. Zion church was full of nothing but "faggotts" from the top, to the bottom (Top, bottom, someone will get that reference.)   ["Must be is,  because I ain't heard from'um, not nar'one!]

When will we wake up!?   Drug abuse is a problem in our world.   People are self medicating, self-soothing,  out of terror.   A woman  low enough to rape her own children is AN ABOMINATION!   She should not be kept a secret!

Almost every day of my life growing up I heard the same admonition from Martha; "I' wud' take dat' tuh my grave, ni."

Martha Jane Walters,  proved to be the low common whore she was always rumored to be,  in Wade, North Carolina. "   Who Mathy!? ….common as bat shit! "

Martha roared, she roamed,  she fought, and she always remained common.

I know one thing, non Bible readers are going to be lost.   They are going to miss the Kingdom relying on media "sound bites" for sound wisdom and understanding.    As a retired History teacher I must point out the "disingenuousness"  of brother "Huck'ah'bee", career politician , want-a-be President.

I could not believe my ears; " The Supreme Court should NOT …. what ever, what ever…lie after lie",  stirring up hatred for "homosexuals".    Mr. Huckabee knows full well that it is the function of the Supreme Court.   Our government operates on a "System of Checks and Balances".   The Legislative branch passes the laws.  Laws designed to ensure safety and happiness.  The Executive branch, (the President, Governor, mayor)  enforces the law and it is the function of the Judicial branch, the Supreme Court in particular,  to interpret the Constitutionality of the laws.

Brother Huckabee,  do you desire to be President so much that you would willing cast millions upon millions into a living hell, just to make your dreams come true?    Mr. Huckabee, you are just like my "mother".    My own "mother" did deliberately take advantage of our limited knowledge to have her way with us.

Mr. Huckabee, I know my mother's excuse.    She was demon possessed.  What is your excuse?  You all can remain blind sheep following behind these pimps and hustlers if you want to.   And Rev. Huckabee, if you are so concerned about souls and people perishing and gong to hell , how are you going to get them into the church?  How do you plan to reach our Gay brothers and sisters with your hateful  rhetoric?

Guess what Brother Huckabee?    You ain't'bout to be no President!    You are unworthy!   You are a despicable liar!  You are repulsive to me.   You are no more than that pimp in a red suit with purple feathers in his hat , taking about; "bitch bedder have my money!"

If you have not noticed, the "Anti-Gay Band wagon" has fizzled out, lost it's momentum.  Brother Huckabee, if you want a cause, try a real one.  Try Incest and Pedophilia, the real cause of our demise as a country.

SELFISH!   "Hearts waxed cold."   Precisely like my "mother".   MANIPULATIVE!  Just like my "mother".    Mr. Huckabee you are also sadistic,  just like my "mother", demanding that people lie and deny their true genuine feelings in order to fit in, to be accepted , by lying hypocrites like you.

America,  just how many closet preachers and politicians do we have to discover before you discover you have been had, played?    I did not march with that Bishop that got caught with his "draws" down.  Thank GOD.    "I ain't listening to the likes of you, either."    I don't trust you any further than I can throw you!

See!  Now do you understand why GOD admonishes us to study!?    Be dumb if you want to.   You'll be a vegetable , somewhere sucking your thumb in a fetal position.    That is what that "stanking" demonic preaching whore did to my family.    My grandfather sacrificed his entire life for his family, left us  a fine home, and vineyards and this low "stanking" whore , preaching  viper came, MURDERED him and was too "no-mannered"  to so much as put a head stone on his grave!   Help us All Holy Ghost!

Having my say, on my blog, for the sole purpose of my healing,  because I have been relegated to a world that doesn't give a shit about me,  because my color is black and my gender female.   A world that pretends to have undying love for it's children,  just like my old "'hoish mama".


So-called preachers, preaching hate for personal gain.   GOD said No!  Yes, it was my own "mother" that gutted me of my womanhood, of my ovaries …but GOD gave them back!

PTL!

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