Reject it!

Reject that spirit of paralyzing fear that was planted in your heart long ago.  Please establish a personal relationship with GOD.  Get to know Him.  He already knows you.  Tune in, learn to identify the sound of His voice.

Trust Him and trust Him only.  Pray!  Pray for GOD to lead and guide you.  Know that He will NOT let your toe dash against a stone.

Now strut!  Dazzle the world with the abundant gifts GOD gave you.

Study!  "Study to show yourself approved."  Acquire knowledge, be ravenous about it.  "My people perish for lack of knowledge."  If you had any real knowledge you would not judge, period.  You, especially would not judge and categorize people buy skin color.

Pray!  Go into your secret closet and pray for the indwelling of His Holy Spirit.  It is more than a life jacket, it is a bubble.  A bubble of protection from theses vipers.

Please do not think loving the LORD will keep evil off of you, or away from your door. If anything, that old imp will come running, attracted to your "weakness", your innocence.  All imps are loud boisterous cowards.  My birth "mother" talked all that smack, raped, tortured, beat brutally but could not find the courage to repent.

Praise the LORD! Martha spent 87years trying to embarrass and low rate others on the sly. "Live by the sword, die by the sword."  Martha was always on the horn with the juiciest gossip, thrilled by the latest tragedy.  My LORD! My LORD!

CHILD RAPISTS THAT FORBID THE WORLD TO KNOW SHE WAS A VILE ABOMINATION FROM THE BOWELS OF HELL SHOULD  NEVER BE BORN BECAUSE I AM ONE VICTIM THAT DEMANDS TO BE HEARD!   "You hear me".

From my earliest memory this creep was in my ear reminding me of my "hideous skin color", my "not good enough, good hair" .  While the IQ test results placed me in the Genius category,  and my Iowa scores always placed me in the 99th percentile, I was not good enough and never would be under her backstabbing Judas Iscariot tutelage  .

"You blaCK AS A CROWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!  You ain't ****!  You ain't gon'nevah be ****! You a goody-two-shoes!  YOU can't win fuh duh fix you in! he-he-he-he-he-he-he I can't lose fuh duh stuff I use.  You bed NOT NEVAH TELL IT! DON'T YOU BLACK MUTHA******** TELL A MUTHA ******* THANG DAT GO ON IN DIS HOUSE!!!!!!!!!""

Martha thought her secret torture was proving all her "predictions" right.  My defeated beaten, mutilated carcass was proof that I was worthless and GOD should not care that she had mistreated me, us , and never so much as had the manners to apologize.  Martha could die satisfied.  We were all thoroughly ruined, messed up!  All our gifts snatched from us.  (secretly, by her, a thing, more imp than mother)

I can not help recalling her anger over my plea to take piano lessons at age 11; "You ain't taking NO piano lessons!"  It was as if she was revealing the fact that she had much different plans for me.  PROSTITUTION!   No lie!  My "Only on Sunday Christian" mother was grooming me for the track!  I am so glad GOD said NO!

 GOD knew that He was "proving" a prophet!  Truly a preacher/teacher!  GOD knew that I would never take anything for my journey and that I would never give up.  Most of all GOD knew that one day I would tell and tell eloquently.  That I would create a page turner.  But most of all GOD knows I am sincere and the imps and vipers are causing far too much pain, unchecked!  Unhindered!  No mannered! "Mannish!" Totally immoral and staining the world with their filth while the "good Christians" stand around shocked, paralyzed with fear.  Blaming GOD…….knowing full well that spirit of fear you harbor is not form Him.

Sick greedy cowardly sadists with no restraint or discretion.

GOD said NO!

PTL! For all of my nay-sayers, for all that abandoned me,  that demonstrated their lack of faith or honest lack of caring.  I understand.  I just want you to know Martha was a liar.  Satan is a LIAR!  And My Dear Blessed Almighty GOD is handling this "thing".  It is ALL IN DIVINE ORDER AND I'M SO FREEEEEEEEE!