GOD bless America!

Dear LORD help us!  Shine a light bright enough for all of us to finally see.  No more martyrs , no more excruciating pain.  That boy that went in that church MURDERING was IGNORANT!  Woefully uneducated!  He dropped out of school in the 9th grade.

America!  You are just beginning to see the tip of the iceberg.  Are we suffering from selective amnesia?   How often does something like this happen?  Much too often.  Yet any one can get a handgun and ammunition.

I used to carry a pistol.  I was very young and very angry.  I did not know I was angry.  I thought I was regular.  I did believe I was a member of the "Black Team".  I was forced to label myself.

I never saw my original birth certificate.  My "mother" said it "labeled" me a bastard.   No, my father did not marry my "mother", ever.   I certainly understand why.   While beautiful and a barrel of fun, she was an extremely violent pathological LIAR, a sick sadist,  that lived to head **** every one she knew, ever met or hoped to meet.

Believe me, you did NOT want to know or associate with Martha Jane Walters.   Poor Martha was a black cloud,  misery going some where to happen.   The saddest fact is, she knew it, she claimed she loved it.   Clapped her hands, squealed like a stuck pig every time she thought her plot or scheme was successful.  Was foolish enough to come around bragging,  half admitting, hinting that SHE was behind your misery, but you didn't have sense enough to prove it, so; "Suffer  sucker!"

 Perhaps she was born cursed, a born demon, born or deliberate, she was one.  She certainly never changed.

Remember, this blog, while shared, is my sanctuary , my place of healing. If you are tired, how do you think I feel.  I know at 64 that I was deliberately targeted and head****ed for 62 years so that a low common woman could  come to this earth and become a complete unstoppable ABOMINATION!

You don't get it,  you can't understand why I can't snap my fingers and get over my affliction.

All I can do is hope and pray no such pain ever touch your life.   My "Mathy Jane experience"  has certainly helped me understand why some people do get a bullet, do get snuffed early in life.   No one, nothing so cruel and unruly should be allowed to rule so long.   Perhaps that is why GOD will not let me shut up!   He told me to warn.  It is raining.  GOD is shaking out the rift raft.  Low politicians greedily taking ALL the money donated for the illiterate. Deep shame on you.   GOD said No!

Martha was a mystery, wrapped in an enigma, a ****ing ABOMINATION,  sent to the earth by satan to slowly torture and destroy.   ( We were psychologically de-boweled by satan's commonest coward,  a demon possessed heifer that chose the CHURH for cover)

 One of the sick practices of British kings was to "de-bowel" offenders.  By some method a man's intestines were slowly extracted, an excruciatingly painfully SLOW death.

Do know that type of punishment is designed to silence, enslave.  Precisely the reason the master demanded all of the slaves stand around and view diabolically evil, cruel,  punishment meted out  to all slaves that exhibited any sense of "self", self confidence or "willfulness".

I know now that is precisely why my "mother" made us witness her brutality.   Brutality that she always passed off as necessary.  You were going to do what Mathy said, you were going to do it , if it killed you.

"Time changes all things"; the words of my wise grandfather.  "Know ye the truth and the truth will set you free."; the words of our wise Jesus.

We share and can exchange the same organs, blood and we are all capable of the same human frailties, love, hate, anger.    We are all subject to be ignorant and violent,  without the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.  I do pray that one day we will finally see the error of our ways.  STOP LYING! Stop being a Mathy Jane!

I press on ...