Read the book of Job ...

"Though s/he slay me, yet shall I serve the LORD!"  It doesn't matter how long you have struggled in the belly of the beast, not knowing, never understanding why you were "tossed and driven".  Longing for love, for acceptance , you kept begging your "mother" for bread because she alone deliberately made sure you had no "father".  She gave you a serpent, a rock, a laughed hysterically as you cracked your teeth, over and over.

GOD said No! You shall reap exactly what you  sow!  All your ranking, posturing, huffing, puffing and chunking will not stop GOD.  "Just and honest due, is yours and mine."  No, I didn't know Mathy was as EVIL AS SHE TRULY WAS!  It was me that made her "mother of the year" in my imagination, in my dreams, in my determination to have a "mother".

  It doesn't matter if the entire world turns against me! Scorn me, revile, rebuke, ridicule me.  I will stand FLAT FOOTED ON THE WORD OF GOD!

KNOWING, THAT I KNOW, THAT I KNOW! PRAISE THE LORD!

I do have another question for you Mathy Jane; if I was so black and worthless, if I was such a loser with no hope of ever winning any thing, why were you so ravenous?  So determined to utterly destroy me?

It was your "commonness".  You used to take Spanish Fly!  Praise GOD Almighty!  The last thing a closet,  nymphomaniac,  fallen woman needs is a sexual aphrodisiac.

Help us LORD!  Lead and guide us to your cross! Touch every heart with Your finger of love!  Take our burdens LORD!  Take that burden of abominable sin that we carry from our parents!  PTL!

I press on ...