GOD is so wonderful!

He sure is!  I was blindsided! Slapped furiously upside the head.  Sat in church every single Sunday for 18 years in a row, clueless.  Confused, perplexed, worried, frustrated and clueless.  She was my mother so I believedd every word that came out of her mouth.

I didn't know my mother was such a cunning imp.  I really didn't know she was perverted, morally depraved.   Martha was cunning enough to pin her perversion on her "mate".  These facts slowly being revealed in my life now,  are good to know.  It was best for us, at least, best  for me , to be kept blind for so long.

The number of purely evil demonic people on this earth is over whelming.  The total number  up preaching in our "churches" would surely astonish us,  if we knew.  Why?  Our itching ears, our demand to be entertained.  Our sheer laziness.  No one should have to be reminded to read their Bibles.  No one should have to beg you to.   If you love the author , the way you claim, no one can keep you out of that Book.

No, satan I did not know you controlled my mother , only because I did not know demon possession possible.   Yes, I knew she worked "roots", practiced witchcraft and I know granddaddy warned her against it but I had no idea it was demonic.

And Martha was excellent. She was so convincing in her charade.  I wanted so desperately to love her.  She was fun when she wasn't up to being her usual hateful, snarly,  always irritable self.

Martha should have been ashamed.  Perhaps she was.  Was it her deep shame that made her something too cruel to know?   She had to be, a female sexual predator!  Any sexual predator is an abomination, and when you are a MOTHER!

That is it, Martha was deeply ashamed but too ignorant, too stiff necked to acknowledge it.  Martha decided to make us all a worse demon than she was.  Why else would a woman introduce her small child to sex so early, so brutally?

She told me once that she could not care about anyone. The fact that she said that,  meant that,  she could.   Plus her savage brutal denial always worked in her favor.  Criticize Martha in the least for any thing, there was going to be some bloodshed!  And never hers!

The wonderful thing is GOD reveals His knowledge in His Book.  That Book is inspired by His spirit.  To think my  mother preached ,  not believing one word , just because GOD didn't jump when she said jump.  Just because her ignorant primitive "voodoo" worked.

You are coming in crystal clear now,  Martha.  I hope you noticed I'm shedding all that sheer fear, sheer terror,  you instilled in me.

Do trust GOD children.  Never give up on him.  I don't care how it looks, how dark the night, never give up on GOD!

Never be racist.  Never count one complexion more desirable, preferable than another.  I know now that is purely demonic.  It is alright to have a preference.  But don't you dare think,  like so many ignorant people,  light skin is better than dark skin.  One just has more melanin.

People mistreating me for the color of my skin infuriates me.  The whole concept of racial divisions is racist!  Absurd! Ridiculous!

We did this!  My race did that!  All childish!  We pray to the same GOD.  He is OUR Father.

My mother was raped as a child, evidently she was shamed to death by the small community she lived in.  The rapist remained in the community, unpunished.  This rape drove a wedge between Rachel and Jerome Walters.  Cunning Martha exploited it.  She was extremely promiscuous and she was a pathological liar.  A violent whorish beast,  she could not keep a man.  She resorted to voodoo and conjure.  She did wax worse and worse.  By age 87 you do not want to know what she was secretly up to.

Always praised and adored for her skin and hair,  she became a charismatic phony preacher.  She was a jealous woman, extremely.  She was extremely insincere and cunning.  But most of all , Martha demanded to punish us for her sins.

I remember her declaring her hatred for us.  What could we do?  We knew we we hated, barely tolerated.  To mistreat us as children was one thing.  But to stalk us into old age chucking dust , casting spells and just being a common beast holding us hostage with fake "religion" was more than wrong.

It was an abomination.  To murder her saintly father in cold blood was worse than hideous. Sure I forgive her.  I forgive her and I am healing.

"Love never fails"

PTL!

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