What kind of fool ...

do you think I am?  My mother did use her twenty-six years of seniority against me.  She had to know that I would grow up one day.  That I would mature one day.  She knew I was literate and intelligent but she was a mongrel beast that never counted on losing, on being revealed.  And so what if she was?  She knew that she would be long dead before the world got a true whiff of her "stank".

satan thoroughly convinces the evil doer s/he is incapable of change.  That the best they can ever do is pretend.

Jesus is standing at the door beckoning you to come in.  GOD does not want us to put on a show for Christ.  He wants us to have Christ!  I would rather live the sad broken hearted life of my Christ like grandfather a million times than be a Mathy Jane for five minutes.

"Oh what a tangled web we weave when first we practice to deceive."  If I had to rank sin, I would rank the practice of lying,  as the worse.  It leads and preserves all the worse things a person can do to their life.

I am laughing now , but it was never funny.  That ignorant Mathy Jane was a ravenous wolf rabidly jealous of every one and every thing.   No one, not one of us,  ever had a chance to be anything with her jaundice eye stalking us, plotting against us.

Feeble minded! Feeble minded! "Come ye out from among them!".  Any one serving the likes of Mathy Jane is cursed!  You are cursed with a curse!  Your only help, your only salvation is in Christ Jesus.

Well, be  stubborn, willful, lying, hardheaded, full of pride and deceit if you want to.  Waste your time doing it your way.  Insist you believe your own lies.  If you can't see how you are just like Martha, minus the incest and pedophilia, I pity you.

I have been shedding all that shame Mathy Jane cast upon me.  I recognize all of her abhorrent tricks.  The kind mother smuggling me free drugs in my youth.  Valium, Librium, only GOD knows what else.  Petting me and cooing in my ear telling me how much she regretted how much this racist world was mistreating me.  And it was her, she was the evil culprit the whole time.

GOD was there, lead me right out of my Valium addiction, cold turkey.  Scheme after scheme failed miserably.  "Backfire!"

We all have messed up our lives.  No person, no race,  is perfect.  So,  you drive a fine expensive car.  So did my mother.  So, you wear fine clothes.  So did my mother.  So, you live in the finest house.  So did my mother for a while.

But, not once could she look in the mirror and call herself a true woman of GOD.  She was a woman of her god, satan.   She was a woman of "witchcraft" and soothe saying.   She was an intractable woman that flat refused to be corrected.  She was a woman that proudly ruined all five of her living sons.

No, I will not say Martha was a waste of human flesh.  Her behavior certainly brought me to Christ.  It is my fervent, earnest prayer that my testimony will attract others.  Put flesh on the scripture.  "Oh ye of little faith …"  Trust GOD!  Free Fall today!

Hear me and hear me well ,  if you still fear her, fear her kind, fear GOD's undisputed truth, you are lost, hiding in the dark because you do not want to be found,  You let the evil one convince you that you can not live without the carnal pleasure s/he deceives you with.

Well you need to pray! You need Jesus!  (We all need Jesus)

PTL!

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