"She did it again"

Those words spoken by my little baby brother still break my heart.  He was only six or seven , the cutest little curly haired boy you ever saw.  He was hilarious, a little old man, drinking coffee and watching the "Soaps" with is elderly grandfather.

"She did it again, Gwen": he cried.  Another one of his pets was found dead, mangled in the driveway.  The truth is we eventually lost count of the number of pets "accidentally" killed by our mother.

"I don't be knowing dey up under duh car!" she would spew angrily.

My brother ***'s prize champion German Shepard, Duchess was his heart.  This dog was brilliant.  I swear she could read.  *** repeatedly begged for Martha (our mother) to get her proper shots.  He was too young to drive and had no money.  *** would have walked the ten miles to the vet's office if he had known what Martha was secretly planning.

Sure enough Duchess came down with distemper .  Martha rushes Duchess to the vet in a panic demanding a miracle cure. She is crying!  She is putting on a show.  Beautiful Duchess died a horrible painful death.

For 87 years Martha Jane Walters lived the secret life of a sick troll, a ravenous imp for satan.  I realize now she wasn't even the double minded,  back sliding "Christian" she pretended to be.  Martha Jane Walters was PURE EVIL!

I know now because GOD took my blinders off, finally.  Praise the LORD!

Yes, she growled at me like a dog.  Martha would do that on occasion.  That evil woman terrorized us! She did it just for the fun of it.  I do believe every one in my family did witness Martha's eyes turning fire and brimstone red, heard her growling like a ravenous wolf on too many occasions.

Martha was a notorious "root worker".  Oh yes, she had power.  She could strike you down, make your skin shed , turn to scales and just fall off.  Martha could make you writhe in pain screaming for death to overtake you.  I know, I saw, I'm a witness.  Did I fear her?  Of course, mainly I was confused because if you just listened to her you would never believe she was anything but the innocent victim, sweet loving mother every one wanted.

When Martha wanted to , she had the sweetest siren, she could call and you would come running, excited to do her bidding.  Like many "two headed doctors" Mathy had her specialty, hers was poverty.  Martha would keep you poor and begging and she would destroy your home.  Through foreclosure or fire.  You would never know true joy associating with her.  You would be her lackey dog, her bitch.

She is dead now Praise the LORD. More of these mongrel mothers are coming but one is down, gone forever.

I am just getting over her.  Not just now healing.  GOD has been healing me one cell at a time for a long time.  People of the Lie by Dr. M.Scott Peck saved my sanity.  Demons are real, they live among us.  They are in our churches, in our families .  They are far too comfortable.  They are actually at ease because we the innocent are so ignorant, so unaware of their possibility.

Our greedy churches don't teach us about them.  All too often our churches are controlled by them.

When I see the banner #BLACKLIVESMATTER it makes my blood boil.  Not just because I think it is evil and racist but because I'm black and never in my life have I had a white person mistreat me the way black people have, NEVER!

I've been black for 64 years and I know better.  Black people do not trust black people.  We have tried. Skin color indicates nothing.   Skin color can not guarantee that you are trust worthy, honest, sincere, morally upright.  Skin is just skin.

I do know that my own mother hated the color of my skin.  She wore me out, vexed me to death berating me about the awful color of my skin.   Like I made myself.  She loved the color of her skin.  When she wasn't ridiculing me for the color of my skin she was bragging about the color of hers.

"I'm light bright and damn near white."  Yes, Martha was one ignorant, savagely cruel woman.  I do have severe PTSD as a result of my 62 years of sheer combat with her.  She was the ultimate coward, preaching for cover, utterly destroying for satan.

GOD told us to study His Word to show ourselves approved.  Please, please, study the Bible for yourself.  Don't be a lazy scholar.  Do not rely on so called "preachers", screaming, hollering loud, putting on a show and teaching you absolutely nothing.  Fleecing you, charging you, making you pay to see them preform.

I found my mother in many books of the Bible but II Timothy 3, explains her best.

"This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come.  For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers,disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy.  Without natural affection, truce breakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good.  Traitors, heady, high-minded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of GOD.  Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away."

My mother, Martha Jane Walters, did love herself.  She was good to herself.  Always wore the finest clothes, drove the finest cars.  Feed us grits and grease while she dined on T-bone steaks.  Once pulled the bone out of her purse to brag about how good she had been to herself .  Laughed; "I'll let you damn ****** assholes close up!"

Martha  was very covetous, insanely jealous of every one and everything. Do not get a compliment, a smile, any gift, award around her.  As a matter of fact, never tell her.  You were going to pay and you were going to pay dearly.

She was a boaster, a boring braggart.  She would talk your ear off for hours bragging on herself.  Disobedient to parents, so much so she MURDERED her own father.  Always talked about how much she hated them, lying on them, always accusing them of severely mistreating her.

Martha was everything in II Timothy 3: 1 - 4, so lets skip down to verse 5,: "Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away."

Martha was "religious".  Quoted  the Bible chapter and verse.  Knew the Bible inside and out, was an ordained minister!  She denied the power of GOD by being a practitioner of witchcraft.  Martha swore by it, studied it night and day and was good!

No matter what little power Martha had or thought she had, she was one dummy.  Targeted her own family.  She just wanted to be above us, her own children.  She did die laughing , falsely believing that I would be destroyed forever.

My medical doctor brother may never practice medicine again, my musical genius brother may never blow his saxophone again,  But I Rachel Gwendolyn Doster shall rise again!

I am coming up out of this pit my evil ignorant mother cast me in.  Many may continue to forsake me, rebuke and ridicule me.  Reject me all you please.  My grandfather, Jerome Walters, taught me to stay on my knees!

PTL!

I press on      …