"Love ye one another as I have loved you."
"Your enemies shall be of your own household."
"Mothers will be against daughters, daughters against mothers. "
We all claim to we are seeking GOD's truth but, are we? Perhaps we, like my mother, are trying to hide our truth, the lies we believe in, from the whole world.
Today all I can do is look back and wonder, how I got over? How I survived a mega monster? How wicked, how depraved. How many people carry a memory of a foul closeted beast in their heads?
Every Sunday we went down the dirt road behind Wesley Chapel to visit my grandfather's nephew. He was blind but he was far from stupid. He was a riot, should have had his own comedy hour.
Right in front of me, right in front of my little girl ears my mother would mock him. "Whut you doing ****? Raising yo'own pussy!? Then she would crack up laughing.
I know now that was her guilt, her perversion talking. The saddest fact is, while Martha never said any of these things around granddaddy, she freely and gladly let her guard down when she thought she was around like minded perverts. I am not calling my cousin a pervert. I have no evidence that he was other than the testimony of my own mother.
I must remember Martha was a pathological liar. She was a deeply disturbed sociopath. I know she told some sick lies on me. I was married once, very briefly. One of the reasons I hated my ex so much he had the nerve to accuse me of being a lesbian!
He should have accused me of being asexual, cold, unfeeling, not a lesbian. My mother was the lesbian. More than a lesbian. She was what they called a Bulldagger, the stud, the manly woman.
It is sad, as honest as Martha claimed to be, a brazen whore that bragged about how much her pussy cost, never had the courage to reveal her real sexuality. After decades of her secret torture I do see how she pinned every demonic deed she ever committed on someone else.
"You dun runt out dawthur…you hit rock bottom, you can't go no lower." I was three years old, perhaps as young as two. I know there is a reason GOD has granted me such a fantastic memory concerning Martha Jane Walters.
There is also a reason this world is so cruel. Over two thousand years ago GOD sent his son, sacrificed Him for our sins. What does man do? Exploits Jesus' image, His Words, His wisdom for their own gain.
That is exactly what my mother did. Up preaching, prancing, putting on a floor show. Pure godly entertainment. Martha hated GOD with a passion! Hated GOD and all forms of goodness and innocence. While I decry the way she MURDERED her own father and got away scott free I condemn myself for still trying to love her any way. Still trying to extract love and admiration from Lucifer's devoted daughter.
Every thing that looks good, sounds good, is not good. Every thing that glitters is not gold.
"From such stay away!" I hear you Jesus, I always heard you but there is one caveat; SHE WAS MY MOTHER!
That is pure torment, pure agony. Granddaddy would call her a liar periodically. He never came out and called her a pure demon directly. He would talk in a very coded language around her. "When yo'head in the lion's mouth, don't make no sudden moves. ….Leave heah and don't nevah come back!"
Why didn't we know? Why didn't I know as a three year old down there in that graveyard with my mother gathered her "goofer dust" that I was indeed in deep shit!?
Sure, granddaddy would caution her very mildly and humbly about her practice of witchcraft. It fell on deaf ears. Mother knew she was a monster, a completely ravenous wolf. She knew it, loved it and terrorized us with her voodoo.
Dear LORD I am truly devastated. Not only did this woman deliberately shame us with her foul sexual molestations and rapes, she dared us to breathe a word! Always blamed it on her partners. I am horrified, SHE ALWAYS GOT AWAY!
This beast, this mongrel MONSTROSITY FOR SATAN got away with the grossest evil for EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS! WAS AN ORDAINED MINISTER FOR OVER THIRTY YEARS!
No lower sneaky woman ever lived. She would frequently tell us how much she hated us. Not only did she tell us, she showed us. The sight of a pinto bean sends me into C-PTSD. (Chronic Post Traumatic Stress Disorder).
My mother and her little jet black troll of a second husband feed us nothing but pinto beans. Pinto beans for breakfast, lunch and dinner just so they could afford to drive a new shiny car every year. Pinto bens without bread, c
This whore! These perverted whores I should say. Looked normal when they were not on the prowl covering North and South Carolina in search of hoodoo workers. Both of them were ignorant, lost human waste. He was searching for protection from war. He refused to go to Viet Nam without the cover of his voodoo.
I am laughing at those two idiots loaded down with "High John the Conquerer" roots. Called "High Joh duh conquer" in the black community, it is a nut that resembles a man's face. If you carry it in your right pocket it is supposed to protect you.
Why did they think they needed so much protection? BECAUSE THEY WERE PURELY PERVERTED PEDOPHILES! (May they both roast in hell for one million eternities!")
He was intelligent enough to become a medical technician in the U.S.Army, a master sergeant. She was intelligent to steal an associate's degree in secretarial science from Fayetteville State Teachers College. They were both envious imps. He knew he married the lowest whore on earth. But she was "high yalla" which made her perversion acceptable.
She knew she could never get a decent man, too much baggage and frankly she was too ignorant, loud and obnoxious.
GOD am I livid!? Am I angry? Am I mad enough to spit fire? Is this world just as blind and as uncaring as Martha and her men?
Will any one ever care about what is happening to our children? What if this country really told us the number of babies raped and murdered by their own parents? Would the world care? Not likely.
"The world does not do what is right. The world does what is convenient ." Words of wisdom from my grandfather. Our world is being destroyed right now as I type. I have come to the conclusion that most people are complete ignorant beasts just like my mother. They are beasts or weak emasculated "Christians"
People so dumb and so clueless they have never read the Bible. Just idiots been exploited by those willing to pick the Bible apart to find scripture to enslave and fleece the simple. The scripture about tithing is referring to the priests . The priest could not farm. Their income, their livelihood depended on the the goodness of the tribes designated to farm , to raise cattle.
Some of the givers were dishonest. Required t give, they gave the worse animals. "Would a man rob GOD?" In other words why are you taking advantage of the priests, of the men in charge of teaching GOD's Holy Word.
A non reader, an anti-intellectual can be used, exploited. Just holler loud and give a few good examples of how tithers prosper, terrorize the simple into believing they are in danger of hell fire for failure to do so and you become a millionaire.
Has anyone noticed that the income of the preacher is way out of line with the giver, with the congregation? Has anyone noticed fewer and fewer chutes feed the hungry, minister to the needy?
Why does an uber rich minister need to solicit funds for a 65 million dollar airplane? To keep babes in Christ away from the church. GOD is moving by his goodness but satan is not sitting still. That is why it is important that you engage in self study.
No, the blind cannot lead the blind. If you are addicted to showmanship. If you have to have a charismatic preacher entertaining you, never teaching you , you shall surely perish with your blind leader.
"Come ye out from among them."
PTL!
I press on …
No matter what satan I will never tire of talking about your depraved ass. Maybe nobody cares about what I have to say today. Perhaps I am one hundred, two hundred years ahead of my time. People will know. History will reveal the stupidity of man. The world will know of these Jezebel/Cain spirited men and women that devoured and deliberately destroyed their own children.
The pure cowards will be revealed. Those that knew and knew they knew, yet pretended to fear. Don't forget GOD knows every heart, every mind. GOD's knows every personal agenda. You can't win. "Apart from Christ" we are nothing.
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